RED

Chapter 4

I walk slowly back to my room, ignoring the fact that I have classes to attend. The goddamn clasess could wait, because right now all I could think about is Red cheating on me. Heck, I can't even remove the thought out of my head. It's crushing my heart and I hate it. Because it doesn't feel like he cheated, it feels more like I was used. I felt raped. And I can't call it like that because I consented it.

I reached the door to my room and yanked it open after unlocking it. I closed it with such force that I practically winced when it loudly banged. I stepped out of my coat and shoes before flopping down my onto my bed. That's when I let my tears fall. I've been holding it, afraid to let someone see me being in a weak state. I don't want to see pity from the eyes of the people who knows who I am.

Memories started to flood in my mind. From the time I and Red met to the time he confessed to me until the night we made love beneath the stars. No wait, he maybe not have called it making love. He may just thought that it was just meaningless sex. Because all this time his eyes were set to a girl I didn't have the chance to know the name. The bastard just fucking used me and when he got what he wanted, which was the girl, he decided that I have no use to him any more. He made me feel worthless.

But the painful part is, I still love him. Even if he practically denied my existence to his life.

I don't know how long it took me crying my guts out when I heard the door to our room open. I looked outside the window and saw the sun setting, making the sky turn to a mix of orange, red, indigo, and purple. Not wanting to let Lovelle see me in this state, I snapped my eyes shut to pretend to be sleeping. But my friend knows me to the bones.

"Samantha, I know that you are not sleeping. Open your eyes and face me."

I sighed. I guess I can't avoid her now. Slowly, I opened my eyes and moved to sit on my bed. I was met with a seething Lovelle. I looked at her with a poker face. Yes, even to my best friend I'm afraid to show my true feelings. I guess it's because of what happened in the past...

"What?! Are you just going to stare at me the whole night? Or you are going to tell me what happened?" She yelled.

"What are you talking about?" I asked sounding innocent. I am even surprised that I was able to sound innocent and not hurt.

"You bitch. I know that you know what I am talking about. I know that you did not attend any of your classess today." She take a deep breath then sighs. "Besides, I saw Red kissing someone who is not you." She said softer.

My eyes widen and my mouth opened by a fraction before I recovered from the initial shock. I guess I can't deny anything about Red cheating on me anymore. I open my mouth to speak but sobs came out. That's when I realized that I was crying the whole time Lovelle was asking me about him.

She did not wait for any explanation from me before she wrapped her arms around my shoulders, hugging me tightly.

"Shhh. If you can't tell me right now, it is okay with me. I'll wait until you are ready to open up. You can cry as long as you want. Just take it all out of your system." She said softly, but the authority in her voice was still there. She wants the story to come from me.

I started to cry or more like it sounded like a wail and I am punching my poor pillow. The whole time, my best friend never removed her arms around me keeping her strong grip. And I was thankful to her because right now I need someone strong beside me. Lovelle knew the pain I'm going through right now. She experienced it first hand when she caught Bran sleeping with some other girl.

After a long moment of me crying and Lovelle hugging me tightly, I calmed down and now I'm just staring in to nothingness. In my head, the scene in the elevator keeps on playing repeatedly. I snapped out of it when I felt Lovelle let go of me and started to move to stand up.