The Fat Girl In Love

Couldn't keep it shut

I enter home alone. I want to cry. I really want to cry. We will start the test the next week. I sleep in my bed, and start crying like a baby. Since there was no one home, I let all the emotions out. I yelled and cried. Tomorrow, there is school. I need to calm myself or it will all go out in the wrong time at the wrong place.
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I can't smile. I'm in school and I can't do fake smile. Me, who always do fake smile can't today. My best friend is quiet. After some minutes, she start to ask questions.
-Hey, are you okay?
-I'm just sleepy.
She doesn't believe me, but she let me go. This mean that she will not give up. When classes finish, I run into my locker. But in my way was Rihanna. Rihanna is a girl as fat as I am, but much more nice and joyful.
- Are you okay? Your eyes are red.
Shit. I need to control more my tears.
-Oh yeah! It's just some dirt that got into my eyes.
I want to see mom.
-You sure?
I really want to see mom.
-Don't worry...
I miss you, mom...
- Hey, you're crying!
I can't keep my mouth shut. I need to talk. I need to cry.