You Don't Think...

Chapter 4

*Previously*

Zoe and Alfie went to the doctor's to find out the gender of their baby, turns out they are actually having three babies; one boy and two girls! ..................................................................................................................

Zoe POV

*20 weeks (4 and a half months) pregnant*

I awoke feeling uncomfortable and wet. I looked down towards the bed sheets and was shocked at the sight I saw. Blood. My blood.

"Alfie wake up!" I say with the little energy I have. " Oh my goodness Zoe, we need to get you to the hospital right now."

The drive on the way to the hospital felt like it took hours, I wasn't able to appreciate the pretty views on the journey because my mind was full of what this might mean.

Miscarriage? No baby?

We arrive at the hospital and Alfie runs ahead so I can get looked at quicker. He dashes back to me and helps me waddle in and sit down. Within minutes a nurse is guiding us into a closed off room. "Where is Doctor Dan?" The nurse tells us that he is not yet here but should be here shortly and will come and speak to us as soon as possible

The gel is placed on my stomach, by the nurse, for yet another time, but this time I feel no excitement, I feel dread. When the nurse finishes scanning me I ask her for the results, as I can't wait any longer. "I'm very sorry Miss Sugg but I am only a nurse in training, and I am not allowed to confirm any information, you will have to wait until your doctor has arrived." She leaves the room.

Oh great! More waiting and more worrying and more time until we can find out the truth. I get off the bed and stand up, my legs feel like jelly and I have to lean onto Alfie for support. For the first time since we found out I was pregnant I see Alfie cry. We both collapse into a heap on the floor, but this time I have no reassurance from Alfie telling me everything is going to be all right, because how was he supposed to know everything was.

Alfie POV

Dan was back. He helped us both to stand up and sat us down in two chairs in the corner of his room.

"Okay. Fortunately I have some good news, and unfortunately I also have some bad news. Which one would you like to hear first?" The big grin on Dan's face had completely disappeared, it was like he was wearing a mask. Zoe looked at me and Dan and said "Good news first please, I need some of that."

"Okay... Miss Sugg you are still pregnant." A sigh of relief was released out of mine and Zoe's mouths. "But unfortunately with the good news also comes the bad news. You may still be pregnant, but you still lost one baby. At the moment you are only pregnant with one boy and one girl." "That is better than the news I was expecting I guess." Zoe says, putting her brave face on. Although, I can see that behind her strength there is also weakness, and I can see she really is upset.

-flashback to 11 weeks-

"Alfie you don't understand how truly grateful I am for being the given the gift of triplets." She broke down in tears and smiles. "I know little one, I know."

We left the doctor's office and Zoe told me how she really felt and she finally let it all out. She cried and screamed, but it was her way of coping with what is really happening. "Zoe, how about we take a break from twitter and YouTube until the end of this pregnancy. Just focus on us and the babies." "I think that is a marvellous idea Mr Deyes," she giggles within a cry.

-TWITTER-

"Hey guys, @Zozeebo and I have decided to take a break from all social media for a few months. They are for family reasons; please don't bug us about it. We hope you are all still here in about 3 or 4 months! Thank you for understanding xxx"

ZOE POV

*18 weeks later (38 weeks pregnant)*

"Oh god Alfie. I think it's time."