The Secrets Of A Wallflower~Larry fanfic

Part 7

Dear friend

We stood in the rain as I held Louis. He was still cry, I didn't understand what was wrong with him but I didn't want to ask. It didn't feel right seeing Louis upset because he was always the happy one in the group who made everyone else happier.

Louis pulled back from me wiping his eyes as he did so. "I'm sorry Harry. I didn't mean to cry in front of you" "oh erm it's okay" "come on your mums been worried sick about you I'll drive you home" "okay" . We walked down to Louis car and got in, the car was warm and smelled like honey. "Harry what were you doing up the hill?" I didn't really know how to answer the question because I didn't know why I was up the hill in the first place. "Erm I just need to clear my head" "o. Everything okay?" It felt wrong for Louis to be ask me if I was okay considering the fact that he was the one that was crying  minutes ago. "yeah. Everything is fine." "Good".

As we drove passed all the beautiful house the question on why Louis was crying stayed in my brain edging it's way to come out my mouth. It finally did as we pulled up outside my house. "Here you go Harry" he said smiling showing his teeth. "Thank you. Louis?..." "Yeah" I could tell Louis knew what I was going to ask him "why were you crying?"  "O" Louis sat back in his chair and turned to look out the window. "Harry. Erm it's kind of a long story." "I have time" Louis smiled a little. "Here how's about this. I'll pick you up around 8 and will go get some food and I'll tell you then." "Okay but you promise to tell me." "Yes I promise you" he turned at looked at me and I nodded. "Good it's a date. Now you sir better get in there and talk to your mother." I got out the car and walked up my path with the stupidest smile on my face as I walked into the house.

As soon as I put on foot in the front door way my mum came running out the living room and hugged me. "Young man I am so mad with you. Where the hell have you been. I got a phone call from the school and they said you had run out. I hope it's not the older boys showing you the wrong way is it?" She stepped back and looked at me. "Harry? Are you high?" "No" I said still smiling. "Well why are you smiling like that then" "I'm going on a date with lo-" "ah Harry long time no see". My heart dropped, my smile faded and I froze. I didn't want to move my eyes from my feet, I didn't want to look and see him standing there, I wanted it all to be a dream and for me to wake up on the top of the hill but it wasn't a dream and he was there. "Hello" my voice was hushed. I felt myself fighting back tears and I looked up and saw I'm standing there in the door was looking at me like a pice of meat. "O yes honey Davie is here doing work with your dad." "Your mother is right. Your fathers work has offered me a job here too and the small flat just down the road for me and my wife." "Isn't that great Harry. Your father feels lost with out David working with him" "yes mum it's amazing" I said moving my eyes back to the ground. "Of course he has no where to stay the now so his is just going to stay the night here and travel home tomorrow" "okay" my eyes didn't move, I didn't want to believe it even though it was really. "You have the pull out bed don't you Harry" "yes mum I do" "well I hope you don't mind me snoring Harry" mum and David laughed and then walks back into the living room.

I ran up into my room and I sat on my bed with my knees tucked into my chest. I felt It hard to breath and I could feel the tears running down my checks. I had been sitting on my bed for about half an hour before my mum came to my bedroom door. "Harry, Louis is at the door he said something about going to get some food" "oh shit" "Harry!" "Sorry mum, I forgot about him coming round"  I forgot, how could I forget about my 'date' with Louis. Fuck. I ran around my room throwing on clothes that looked okay together and quickly brushing my hair. I ran down the stairs to see Louis standing at the bottom talking with my dad and David, I smiled as soon as I saw Louis but them my eyes floated over the David who was staring at me. "ah Harry there you are" my dad said looking up at me "you had Louis waiting" "sorry" "it's okay hazza" Louis shrugged his shoulders in a goofy way and smiled at me.

We walked down to Louis car and as we got in I noticed and picnic basket in the back of his car. "Louis where are we going" "it's a surprise Harry" he said smiling at me. I don't know how long we drove for but we where far way from my house, which at this point in time made me happy because it meant I was far way from Davie. "Here we go" Louis says as he pulled the car of the road stopping it. He got out and walked around to get the basket out of the back seat. "Come on Harry" I got out the car and followed Louis as we walked down a narrow path. We stopped after about five minutes of walking and I could hardly see anything until Louis pulled out a lighter and lit a small group of sticks on fire. The fire lit up the whole surroundings and I could finally see where we were. We were beside a small lake the had logs the we could sit on. "come on sit down Harry" I walked over beside Louis and sat down next to him. "Are you going to tell me what's wrong now" "let's eat first Harry" "no Louis I want to know now" "okay, okay Harry I'll tell you" Louis paused and looked down and his feet.
"Okay here we go...Harry ever since I was five years old I have always know that I was different to all the other kids and that the things they did I wouldn't/couldn't do. You may sit and think that I'm an alright guy that has his shit together he's the one in the group that makes everyone else laugh and makes everyone feel happy everyone wants to be around him because he is that kid but...." Louis paused and looked up at me.
" But I'm not Harry. I'm not happy and I'm not okay and everything is so shit and life is so crap and I hate it and all I want to do is make everyone else happy so they never have to feel as bad as I do when I look at myself and all I see is a mess. I'm not the happy guy. I'm never the happy guy. Well I was never the happy guy but Harry the time I spend with you pulls me away from the dark part. You make me smile with everything you do like how you hum to yourself when you think no body is listen or when you smile to your self when you think no body is looking. Harry you make me happy."

"But Louis I don't understand why your where crying?"

"Harry I'm crying Coz I'm scared okay. The last time I got close to someone they left me and they broke me even more. I'm scared that if I let you in the you will just leave me and I don't want you to leave me Harry."

I could hear Louis's voice cracking as he spoke.

"I won't leave Louise. I'm here. I promise you that I won't leave you"

Louis looked up and me. I could see tears rolling down his checks.

"You promise" "I promise"

I the next thing I new Louis had his hands on the sides of me face and his lips where locked with mind. Kissing Louis wasn't like kissing Davie. When Davie kissed me he forced my head on to his almost as if he was trying to head butt me but with Louis it was as if he was holding me guiding me to his lips. He pulled back from me and just looked at me. "Sorry Harry I-" "it's okay Louis"

We sat and ate the food next to the warmth of the fire and I felt relaxed and I didn't want to leave because when we did I would have to go back to Davie. "Shit Harry it's 11" I sighed as I looked at my watch. He was right it was 11 and we had to leave. "Come on Harry we have to go" "can we not...like stay here for a bit longer?" Louis just looked at me "Harry what's wrong. Why don't you want to leave" "because is nice here" "but it's a school night and you need to get home" I just looked at the ground. "Harry what's wrong?". I wanted to tell Louis but I couldn't. I couldn't tell anyone about me and Davie. "Come on it will be okay what ever your worried about" Louis stood up and stuck of his hand for me. At first I thought it was just to help me up but went I got up he held it firmly in his own.

We pulled up outside my house and I sat there in the car looking at my front door out of the Window, I known he was in there and I known what his plans for the night were  going to be. Louis took my hand and squeeze it. "Hay" I said pulling my hand into my chested Louis just smiled "it's okay Harry." He grabbed my shoulder and pulled me closer to him placing his lips on mine. I placed my hand on the side of his face and kissed him back. Louis pulled away. "Bye Harry I'll see you tomorrow" "bye Louis" I got out of the car and slowly walked up the path to my house and in the door.

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