leah's rants!!

lost

Lately without my best friend I have to admit I'm pretty lost, considering she was the first person I opened myself up to but I'm not sure how to bring myself to get over it.

She clearly has, I mean that's part of the reason why it hurts so much is because I was so easy to replace.

It was like I was replaced before the friendship even ended, and the phone call I made only made it official. My friends are great right now and I wouldn't ask for any other ones but I miss being someone's first you know? :-(

Like if they needed something or someone they'd go to you and ask you for help, or if they just wanted after school plans they'd ask you first in a heart beat. I loved getting treated like I was special and it's not easy for me to cope with the fact that's gone.

I've written poems, and hell I've written songs because it hurts but whatever she would've tried to talk to me by now if she wanted to repair things.

Maybe I should've ended it by saying "that we aren't friends for now" instead of being so blunt about it.

Anyways, I hope all is well for you guys

~Leah