C'est La Vie: Once Upon a Time

The Talk Part 4 : Hidden Past

"THE HARDEST THING ABOUT THE ROAD NOT TAKEN IS THAT YOU NEVER KNOW WHERE IT MIGHT HAVE LED." – LISA WINGATE
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Previously:
Holding the rails from both sides of the hospital bed like holding on to dear life.

"...AHHH!!" I am screaming while this is happening with tears so big fat drops flowing down my face like a river, with so much strain against my back.

Then it started when I thought it couldn't get worse and I never imagined the pain I would describe that I thought at that moment would be like that. They... they say you have to experience just that to know what it felt like." She thought skeptical trying to push that memory back in.

Screaming my lungs out so loudly... Until something unexpected happened that moment.

I was shaken at the moment what happened with fear. Everyone was wondering the same thing from the facial expressions they had.

"Oh my! DID I DO THAT?" I asked to myself with a slightly croaked voice three times with wide eyes.

Flashback:
11 years ago....
"Ahh!!" Emma Swan yelled with all her might, as long as her lungs can screamed for. The pain was so excruciating, it was like running a marathon at a cross country team.

I haven't realised until now what was happening. I was in labour, giving birth.

Then, I just heard the doctor say to me , "Emma it's almost time. How are you feeling?"

Is he really seriously asking me that question. How do you bloody think I'm doing you fucking dumbass! I'm feeling peachy at the second." Said sarcastically mentally to myself.

"NO I AM NOT OKAY! IM FEELING LIKE SOMETHING SHARP, AS IF IT WERE A KNIFE BEING PUNCHED INSIDE ME."said to everyone in the room while my blue eyes welled up with tears across my face.

"Alright, we will soon get your better from the pain you are feeling." Said American doctor.

"Your dilating now from the centimetres. Emma , it's now time to bring this little guy into this world shall we? soft voice said to a sweaty tired Emma laying in the bed.
"Deep breaths, deep breaths. Breathe away." Saying with a calming voice.
I just nodded tiredly and having a red strawberry face to go along with it. The nurse said "here we go." The doctor said quickly"doing great doing great, doing fine. The nurse said at the same time," almost there, keep going."
"Deep breathe. Now Emma, push . push Emma push." I heard the doctor tell me.
"Agh, ahh!!" I screamed through the tremendous pain grabbing one rail and hooded the nurse hand with other to endure the pain that I'm feeling between my legs.
"Your doing great Emma, just a couple more and he is here into this world." encouraged the doctor to her.
"I- - - I can't. It hurts to much" she cried out with pants pant panting.
" yes you can. He's almost here. Two more push." He said.
I pushed with steady slow pushes like in the beginning then when he said "BIG PUSH, BIG PUSH!" I screamed with so much pain, the lamp and lights in the room flickered off and on. I kept screaming until I lifted myself up somehow turning my body slightly the side with the pain. I gave the biggest effort. I just collapsed back to bed from giving birth to my son panting air from my lungs. The room was filled with the echoes of the baby first cries.
"Here we go.That's good.That's beautiful. It's a boy Emma. Told her bringing the baby to her.
I turned my head to side panting not wanting to look upon a little baby I brought into this world, the son that was "his" too.
"Emma" said medical doctor. She just shook her head not wanting to hold her newborn baby. Trying to avoid it.
The nurse came towards the doctor after the sheriff spoke to her saying something in a low voice, whispering to the doctor while he was holding the baby still. Emma just pursed her lips sighing crying not wanting too see anyone. The doctor said"Emma, just so you know you can change your mind." She was still looking away and said with a raspy trembling voice slightly crying voice "No, I can't be a mother." Tears falling down my face crying a because of the hardest decision I made at that moment.
The doctor just looked from me to the newborn baby he was holding with a frown sadden face lingering in his face. I can tell he had an emotion that showed disbelief and shocked that I, the baby's mother rejected her own son , her own blood that connected with hers.
He walked away to God no where. I assume he gave the baby or to inform someone to give the baby up for adoption, to someone that can love him when I simply can't.
At the moment he left I cried squeezing my eyes shut and blinking them tears falling down with a panting about giving him up, the baby that I just delivered... My son.
I refused to look at him for a little bit. The pain would've unbearable, then the choice of giving him up would make it harder and I would have doubted in taking the risk. If I looked down to his eyes, I was scared. As if I were looking at "his " eyes.

End of flashback. Back to reality.

Just bear with me everyone. This is soon will be getting good in the next chappie.

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Lovelies .