My Inner Demon (A BBRae Fanfiction)

The Gem

There's a knock at my door,so they must be home.

"Rae, are you okay?" I hear BeastBoy ask. I'm honestly glad it's him and not someone else.

I sniffle. "No..." I say.

"Are you... Crying?"

I stand up and open the door, tears still fill my eyes and run down my face like raindrops on a window. I look at his face, so concerned. I didn't know anyone cared about me that much. I grab a hold of his shoulders, pulling him close and wrap my arms around him. I don't let go. He hesitantly wraps his arms around me in return and we remain so for at least thirty seconds.

We pull apart. "Raven, what's wrong?" His voice sympathetic as he looks at me with puppy dog eyes.

"My father..." My voice is so hoarse from crying that it's a struggle to get the words out. I slide my back down the wall and start crying again. He sits down beside me, waiting to listen.

I stare blankly at the wall in front of us and recite the prophecy, my voice empty of feeling.

"The Gem was born of evil's fire,
The Gem shall be his portal,
He comes to claim, he comes to sire,
The end of all things mortal!"

"What was that?" He asks.

"The prophecy of Trigon's return."

"The Gem will be his portal? What does that even mean?"

I swallow hard because it feels as though there is a wad of cotton in my throat. "It's me... I'm the Gem. He's going to use me as his little puppet to destroy everything and there's nothing I can do to stop him." I bury my face in my knees.

"We- we can help you! We can-"

"NO!" I shout, "No, you don't understand! He's going to kill you! He's going to kill everyone. Well, he's not.... I am."

"Raven..." He puts his hand under my chin and turns my face so our eyes meet. His eyes two small specs of light in the otherwise pitch black hallway. "You and I both know that he can't make you do something you don't wanna do. No one can. That's one of the reasons I like you..."

"But BeastBo-" before I can finish my sentence he pulls my face to his and gently touches his lips to mine.

He pulls away just enough to speak. "Garfield," he says softly. "My real name is Garfield." He smiles, locking his eyes onto mine.

A small part of me almost kisses him back, but then I come to my senses. I slap him in the face and stand up. I can't afford to lose control of my emotions. Not now. Not if I'm going to defeat my father.

"OW!" He squeals, rubbing his cheek. "Wha- why did you slap me?!"

"Why did you kiss me?!" I throw back at him.

"I thought..."

"You thought WHAT?! Even if I did like you this would not be the time for romance! So get that through your rabbit-sized pea-brain and leave me alone!"

His face turns grim. "Raven, I- I'm sorry."

"I don't care if you're sorry or not. Just leave me alone." I go in my room and let the door close behind me.

I pace back and forth trying to clear my mind of everything that just happened. I wish I could cry again. It made me feel a little better. But I can't. I walk over to the shelf and pick up a hand mirror. I look at the reflection: a hideous, grey, emotionless monster... No, not a monster- a demon. I scream as I throw the mirror at the wall and watch as it shatters into a million pieces. I need to leave. If I have any hopes of destroying my father I can't be distracted. I decide to go somewhere far away from the Titan Tower and leave my Titan communicator behind. Before I leave, I go outside and fly up to BeastBoy's window. He's sitting on the edge of his bed looking act a piece of paper, crying. I made him cry. I had to... To keep him safe, I had to break his heart.

He looks up slightly and sees me before I have the chance to hide myself.

"Raven?" He walks towards the window and puts his hand on the glass, his eyes still wet from crying.

I look down, because I know if I look at him I won't be able to leave. I put my hand up to the glass, meeting his. "I'm sorry, Garfield." I turn around and fly away.

"RAVEN!" He exclaims. "RAVEN, WHERE ARE YOU GOING?! COME BACK!"

My eyes start to well up with tears but I wipe them away before I lose it. "I'm so sorry..."