fall - taeyong

prologue

the number of cuts on my hands are equal to the number of days he was gone, taken whatever you wanna call it.

you must be thinking... am i a lovesick fool?
well maybe i am.
He was my best friend
He was always there for me
He was the one to protect me
He was always by my side
He was my first love *sighs* he still is.

Everytime he was with me, protecting me or just there,, i would fall for him even more but i knew i never had a chance with him. I dont even know why we're friends.

Well, we were friends. We even made a promise. A promise where we would always be friends and nothing will come between us. I thought i would be the one to break it but he did.

he got a girlfriend.
he paid all his attention to her because it was his first girlfriend he woudlnt know what to do. And me? he didnt even pay a single attention to me.

haha what was I expecting? he had a girlfriend. i was just pushed aside. i didnt want to get hurt so i chose to hold in all the pain and hide away, ignore him. but that caused more pain to me, seeing him so happy without me. so i need to do this if i ever wanted to move on .

we stopped talking for months and thats the reason to all the scars covering my arms. He was my only true friend and now he was gone.

why cant i just forget him and move on with my life?

Everyday i try and forget him.. but all those memories just ruin everything.

I even tried to end it all, but something in me told me i still had a chance. its stupid, i know.
I should hv just ended it all.

and everynight the same thing.. i go up to the rooftop and think should i or should i not?

but one night i just coudnt handle it anymore.
i've been ignoring him for months, and that night I saw him with her, he looked so happy.

why can't I forget him just like he forgot about me.

all the pain I was holding in, i just let everything go. i did what i had to do if i wanted all this pain to end.

but my plan to end the pain went wrong. how? read about how it all went wrong and what happens after that incident.
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A/N: helloooo i decided to make a deep sad wtvr u wanna call it fanfic.. wohooo.. but who should be the characters? idk so yea before you read this dont forget to read my other fanfic -home- so pls vote on both stories and comment what you think👌🏻👌🏻