The First Date

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Paige's POV

What am I thinking? How did I let myself get so out of hand this morning? Emily's going to think I'm easy or fast or whatever. Damnit, I can't blow this. I really like her. Her. That sounds too weird. Never thought I would be worried about screwing things up with a woman.

The next couple of periods went by quick as I tried to figure out what to say to Lauren. She knew about Emily but she wasn't sure what I was going to do about it because she's never seen me like anyone like this before. I hadn't even told her about the kiss last night. I walk into the locker rooms for my last period gym I head to my locker next to one of my best friends. Lauren and I have been friends since middle school. She helped me with science and I helped her join the swim team. We have been best friends ever since.

"Hey kid, how was early morning gym with your college friend? Did she give you a work out?" Lauren said with a wink when she looked at me. There is always something in the way Lauren talks or says something at just the moment I'm thinking about it that gets me to open up. I have yet to figure out how she does this. But it's one of the reasons I adore her as a friend.

I can't help it and I laugh at her. "Listen love doctor, just because you and Tam get a 'workout' when you're together in a different way, doesn't mean I did. We worked out and that was it. She walked me to my car like a lady. Where are you taking Tamsin on your anniversary tonight? Do you have a plan on how you're going to ask her?"

"I don't have any idea honestly, Paige. I don't even know how she feels about being exclusive like that. Fuck, I start to shake just thinking about it! Help me figure out what to say? Please Paige? I know you're a secret romantic little miss jock." Lauren half begged and was all serious.

I sit down on the bench next to her and change my shirt. I think for a minute before answering her question. "Ok, well, don't do it at dinner. That's predictable. Don't take her to a movie either because you can't talk there. How about taking her out to the place we found a couple years ago? Ya know, the one out by the river? Make it a picnic where it's just you two far from everyone. Just ASK her Lauren. Tammy adores you, she wouldn't say no. And if she does, laugh it off and fuck her silly, like you always do." At the last part I laugh at her when she smacks my arm. "Please bitch, you never shut up about sex with her. How is going to be any different tonight?"

Lauren punches my arm this time. "Just because you don't fuck doesn't mean your ears are too fragile to hear about my night time fun. But really, how did this morning go? Did you get to talk to her? Did you explain to her that you are not really sure what's going on?"

"It went…..Better than I had expected actually, Lauren. I think I'm her girlfriend now somehow. I want us under wraps for now. So only her three best friends and my three know. I want it to stay that way for now. I don't think I'm ready to tell everyone who I really am" I say with a heavy sigh. "Sweetie, can we talk about this some other time. I just can't right now. I'm still processing and trying to get things straight in my head before I announce it to the world. Besides, we should go warm up before our run this afternoon." I start to avoid Laurens gaze and get up to walk out to the track. Lauren is hot on my heels and she catches me with a hand on my shoulder. I know she wants to be supportive and help, but something in me just doesn't want help. I don't want to know what I'm feeling.

"You know I'm always going to be here for you kid. When you're ready to talk we can. I don't know a lot of what you are going through but Tamsin does. If you wana talk to her she might be able to help. I love you, don't want you to struggle with this alone Paige." Lauren whispers to me as we walk out the door together into the sunlight of the afternoon. She stops me and pulls me into a hug. I didn't realize I need one so bad. I return the hug tenfold.

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