The Truth About Life

Supposedly Life Is Better Now

Scarlett's P.O.V.
I'm finally getting better. My social anxiety is much better than before, and so is my depression. Though recently I've seen, so many songs, pictures, videos, etc. about friendship, but all of those have only two best friends.

I have two best friends, but I feel left out some times. Before I was their friends they were two best friends who could match those pictures and videos. There is also the saying that blonds and brunettes are perfect friend, and Krea is a brunette and Layana is a blond. it also shows only two friends. Sometimes I feel like I'm just the third wheel. Although they tell me I'm their friend I still feel that I ruined their friendship they had before I came into the picture.

I also feel like I'm not there for them enough. I rarely ever get to see them, and they are moving on and growing up, while I'm still here trying to stay in pink tutu's, dance around and eat candy. I'm much more mature now and I'm growing up, and I hate it yet I'm fine with it at the same time. Middle school is such a frustrating time in life. I hate it yet I try to get over it without crying, so much.

Home is supposedly a place to come to, so you can breathe. Yet home isn't a safe place for me. My brothers have no respect for me at all. My father is stubborn, and always belives that he's right, but when we get mad at him he's always over dramatic thinking that he's the one who is picked on. Almost all the time I wish it was just my mum and I.

My mother is, so kind, benevolent, and understanding. Yet her and my father fight all the time. She has always told me to be careful of who I chose to marry because they might not be who you thought they were. My mum really deserves someone better yet she has my father.

Life at home definitely isn't perfect. I hate the threats, rude names, the beatings, the disrespect I get. It's just very stressful. I'm always told to do chores that my father and brothers are to lazy to do all the time. Both of my parents are gone a lot meaning I always have to watch all three of my brothers. They never listen and they get me in trouble. I try so hard to make sure that I get everything perfect, but I'm human so I make mistakes. My father doesn't understand that though.

I used to dream about everyone in my family happy and getting along, but I stopped thinking about it. I know it will never happen, so I don't think of those kinds of things. I try to get good grades. My grades are always high, but sometimes some might be lower, and then I feel disappointed in myself.

I'm always to hard on myself, and I try to be perfect. Yet I'm not, and it kills me on the inside. I never like to show my depression, or sadness to others and I deal with it in my room at home. I will cry myself to sleep, or just think why I have to deal with this. I always question my life. Right now life just stabs me in the back everyday. I will have a good day, but then it immediately goes downhill.

So yeah, life is supposedly better now.

Author's Note:
Hello dearies sorry this chapter is, so depressing, but it's just life. I hope you enjoyed! Also I have a friend who is super amazing Sher name is MauraWolfhill. She has an amazing story, so go check out her page. Bye, bye for now dearies!!~<3 ^ω^