Don't Let Me Go - Wont Be Completed For A While!!

Chapter One; Never ending pain.

   The blade slip's through my fingers, falling in the puddle of my blood on the floor. Relief. I'm shaking, as adrenaline takes over my body, tears flood down my face. I cant believe i gave in again, I promised myself i wouldnt. I'd promised myself i would stop. I just cant, not with the constant reminder that i'm a failure. With the constant dirty looks, whispers, jokes, lies and punches, cutting seems to be the only way out for me. I stare longingly at the fresh blood washing down my arm, acknowledging that my wounds are getting deeper and deeper each time i give in.

   By now your probably wondering who I am. I'm Laura, Laura Smtih. I'm 16 years old and I live in the UK, in a small place called Swanley. I've been suffering depression for a year now, and its been the worst year of my life. Gradually through the year i've lost every single one of my friends. All thanks to Liz, she's the popular girl at school, the one who everyone wants to be, the pretty girl, the smart girl, the bitch. All because of her I'm covered in scars, ashamed to show myself to anyone. 

   You see it all started when her boyfriend started the school, Niall. He was so perfect, he had ocean blue eyes, a thick irish accent and the most perfect fluffy blond hair. He was a jock but he wasn't like the usual jocks, he was kind, funny, care free, everything someone wants in a person. At first we never spoke. Because he was strictly off limits to everyone because he was Liz's. But one day he got paired with me to do a science project and each night he came round to do the work, i grew more attached to him. I started to notice little things about him that i started to fall in love with. Like the small cheeky grin he would occasionally do, or his constant hunger. The fun pillow fights we would have at about 12 at night, trying our best to be quiet because my mum was asleep next room. It was the final day of our project when i realised it was him. I had fallen deeply in love with him. He's the only person that made me feel beautiful, when others didn't.. but he was with Liz. I questioned him every night asking what he saw in her but he he would just reply " She's just right for me". And each time i felt my heart break a little bit more. She doesn't deserve him. I do. 

   I had to prove to Niall that I was better for him than her. It was the most nerve racking thing i've ever done, and i've regret it ever since. I knew Niall loved me back, he was just scared to admit it to me because he was scared of how Liz would react, which is understandable. I slowly leant in and pecked Niall on the lips then pulled away. Looking into his deep blue eyes he stared straight back, almost in astonishment because of what i just did. But in a matter of seconds he pulled me back in and kissed me passionately back. He loved me. I knew he did. I knew all along that i was the girl.

   And then being my gulliable, stupid self i figured he would end things with Liz and be with me.. but boy was i wrong..this was the besginning of the worst year of my life.

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Any guess' what happened?  Sorry this is bad, this is my first ever fanfic and I'm not the best writing. I'll try update every Thursday, but it depends when i have time. Please leave a comment and vote? it would mean a lot :)