A 15 Year Old Diary

Part I

5.3.15💍
Dear Diary,

I saw him today you know how hard that is ,that is so hard he? Yes him. I dont know what I see in him. I don't know to be honest. I just never felt like that for no one else. I dont know why i did that i dont know why. I just feel like he feels like i just fucked around with him. Which i type did but ugh. I just hate it. All my friends know well sort of. I told my friend Wendy . I wasn't sure if i could tell her sometimes we on good terms and bad terms. Which obviously means that when we not on good terms she can tell every one my secret. But my dumb ass went ahead and i told her. What had happened between me and him. Im not sure if im ready to write it in here even tho ik no ones gonna read. Unless someone comes and reads it ill eventually write it in here. Umm about this boy i feel like i have mixed feelings about that. Tbh idk what i really feel. I need to talk about it with my bestie . Aka amaya. Lol but idk idk idk and idk . I just want everything to stop until i make up my mind. Damm this made me feel way better just by writing it down by the time im done writing this . Im still going to think about this and over think it and over think it