YOUTH «Ziam»

Chapter 1: Move

"A flock of birds, hovering above, just a flock of birds, that's how you think of love"

Chapter 1: Move

*Liam's POV*

I find myself sitting on the side of my bed staring at the floor. I didn't know what to do now that she was gone, what was there to do? Since it's summer vacation none of my friends were around to keep me company from this sadness and anxiety, I felt as if I had no one.

It's been a month since my girlfriend Madison died on the highway where we spoke our last words, on the phone, as a semi truck hit her vehicle. The last thing I had said to her was don't say goodbye, but she did, just not the way it was mean't to be said.

I've spent the last few days thinking about my actions and it has come to the conclusion that I had killed my girlfriend. I shouldn't have called her, I should've just waited, but things led up to another and I was worried she took so long.

Madison's parents moved away from the country, they couldn't stand the torture, I guess you could say, of being in the country their prized daughter died in, and I don't blame them. The house had been up for sale for a few days, knowing that it was vacant, I would visit it sometimes and swing on the swing set left behind.

I finally rise from my bed and leave the room, it was time to go to the vacant house of my girlfriend, and soak up all the memories we've had.

Once I reached the house, I jumped over the fence and dusted myself. I sat on the same exact swing I had been for days and looked up at the slowly moving clouds.

"Hey Mads." I say silently. "H-hey angel."

"If I could've saved you I would, you know that right?" I frowned. "I seem to have lost all hope in myself now that you're gone, I want you to know that. I'm not myself when you're not with me, I just wish this was a dream. You left me too soon Mads, why did you leave m-me?" I start to tear up and sniffle the bit of snot dripping down my nose.

"You mean so much to me, and I wish I could've said that to you before you left me, I wanted you to know that. I just wish I was happy again Mads. I was always happy with you, but without you, I'm a miserable being. If I think like this everyday, I will die. I want to see you, but I want to be happy again Mads." I sniffle once again and look into the detailing of Madison's siding of her house. Bringing my fingers together, I hold my own hands and place them in my lap.

"My love for you will never die, but I'm lonely. I c-can't live lonely anymore. I need someone, but it could never be as much as I wanted you Maddie, but who could love me, I'm such a PRICK." I scream loudly that it echoes a bit throughout the block.

I was angry at myself because I knew that I would never move on and never be happy like I was before. Nasty thoughts always filled my head and it progressively had gotten worse.

As I sit back on the swing, I sit and zone out with the question in my head,

"Will I ever find love again?"

*Zayn's POV*

I was so excited to finally move into a brand new house! A fresh start was all I needed I think. I was happy that my parents decided to because I wouldn't have made it.

I wasn't treated normally in Bradford and my parents knew, because I was different. I started expressing myself to school and the insults floated my brain each day. I was called a terrorist for the longest time and it really got to me, I wanted to be myself, but there, I couldn't be myself.