Elliot Alderson x Reader (rami malek)

Chapter 29 : 5 months ....of solitude

( 5 months later ) YOUR POV
I miss Elliot like all hell but .....is it bad to say I'm actually enjoying myself ? I know it sounds shitty but well.....this is the most family I've had in a while .I get to kick serious ass and steal it gives me the biggest cheap thrill like nothing can stop me like I'm free.....was Elliot holding me down.....was he my extra weight .....Elliot the name that makes the cogs in my mind whir like crazy .An ambush of emotions come flooded to me all at once.
Besides that they treat me like a queen I get any and everything I want Vera's orders ......I see him eyeing me from time to time .....but I think he knows his limits .....as I know mine with him. I get flirted with a lot and I always answer the same I have a boyfriend .
One of the men replied with this ; And I have a goldfish I thought we were mentioning things that don't matter.To which I replied by kneeing him in the balls walking away.
I do have a boyfriend don't I ?
(ELLIOTS POV)
I think about her everyday her gorgeous laugh, her smile ....... Damn those (eye color) orbs that swirled with passion .Her Eden of a body pressed against mine we were but to sinking vessels drifting on an ever flowing pond.Dissmissing our lies to the stars God I miss her .....I was so venerable I slept with .....Angela ....my body disregaurded my mind I hated every minute of it after my falsed satisfaction I felt nauseous and threw up .....
I immediately broke it off with her and ...she kept coming around and she still does.Its annoying but now she's all I got.But that doesn't matter I have a job to do save the world and I plan to complete it .Steel mountain .... I need to file my secret rerouting data to turn off the a.c. and burn the files.
(y/n) loved rerouting data.....it was her favorite ....goddammit I need to stop this it's been 5 months ....5 of the worst months of my life.....The mission not her ....the mission not her.....Her not the mission.....
YOUR POV
Hey sweetcheecks ? Garlo called.
Yea I called back .
Thats my nickname .... I can't change it...... 

We got a bust and we need your skills at Steel mountain he said .
I nodded I remember Elliot always wanted to hack Steel mountain.
But now it's my turn all solo in my jumpsuit as I jumped in our convertible.Garlo and the team drove me there as they Sat in the van and I got out of the convertible.
You I know what to do he said.
I nodded I did know in and out no questions I thought.
I climbed up the safety ladder and reached the roof looking down thinking of how dead I could I
Have been .
ELLIOTS POV
Well I had to get all those drugs outta my system .My relapse was fucking crazy but half way through the delusions I saw .....(y/n) she had on all white and it swayed on her perfect frame as she twirled and danced with me .She grabbed my hand I pulled her close and kissed her .
Never leave me I said.looking into her eyes.
She smiled and stroked my cheeks before saying the thought that haunted my dreams .
But you left me Elliot she remarked .
I snapped awake in the van .
Were here my partners said .....They gave me my ear piece.
I started towards the building .
YOUR POV
I got through and now for my talents .....which included seducing officers ....I haven't had relations with men since Elliot.But if needed I have to kiss them sometimes .I hated it but it helped to pretend those other guys were Elliot .
I decided to intercept the data through the network room in the mens bathroom .But I have to travel through the products to get there I shimmy my way from through one and continue foreward.If I fall I'm dead....if they turn up the heat im dead or going to jail. I don't care anymore let's just get this done let's save the world for Elliot I thought.
ELLIOTS POV
I got in thanks to my.....team?I've run into Tyrell and began eating and went into the bathroom due to the fact that my nerves were taking the better of me ....I went inside and threw up I was so shooken up ...am I really doing this ?? That's when I heard feet shifting in the janitors closet.
YOUR POV
I was crawling through for a while til I finally got there I dropped through and grabbed the panel.
Ok Garlo I'm on it ! I say
I began rerouting the data as my nerves make my hands shake at anytime I could be caught life over.....Elliot ...always let me reroute the data....its my favorite.I teared up but didn't cry... I let the sting of tears wanting to fall stop.That's when I heard someone enter the bathroom and blow some fucking chunks.The team couldn't see but they could hear they told me to hurry up and get out before I got caught .
I shifted my feet so I could squat and get a better angle so I could work faster.
NO ONES POV
The knob slowly turned and (y/n) froze she looked up shocked and suprised she never heard anyone coming let alone who she saw before her .She stood to her feet never breaking eye contact with the smitten man.
Elliot she breathed out and reached .
He shuttered before her . His hand touched her cheeks and stared her in the eyes deeply.
Are you real ? He shuttered.