I Need Another Xanax

Stung And Betrayed

Susan is getting my makeup ready right now for the get together her boyfriend is getting set up tonight. She said we would go to her boyfriends party and only hit a few joints before sunrise. The party is supposed to last all night. "I'm not really game for this..." Susan stopped doing my hair and looked at me from the mirror "Grow the fuck up. It's not like you're gonna be totally fucked tonight." She chuckled. I looked at her trying to sound pitiful "Please! I don't wanna drink at all... And besides my mom will get pissed off if I'm sneaking out with you." She looked me up and down from the mirror.  "Like I said, you need to grow the fuck up and have fun. No one will rat you out I promise. Jared's not like that." Okay so this party was supposed to be a summer party that was supposed to be based on our last summer before we go off to college so there was going to be ALOT of drinking. It was on a beach with a lot of people from different schools in the county. "Fine. If I can at least go with my sweats on I think I can manage." She glared at me then rested her hand on my shoulder. "Put a bathing suit under whatever you are gonna were..." We walked down stairs so Susan could fell my parents up. Susan jumps in front of Daddy and she starts talking fast "Mr. Crafler... Would you let Anna stay the night with me tonight? I promise she will be safe with me." Susan knows exactly how to get my dad to do anything. All she has to do is ask. My dad and her dad both are like really really close so Susan is like a daughter my dad never had... We will get to that part later though. "Okay... Is Anna gonna be a good girl over there with the big kids?" I looked down at the floor. Humiliated by my father who still treats me like I'm a baby. Susan elbows me and says "I'll be sure of it Mr.Crafler. You can count on me and Tod on that job!" Tod is Susan's brother, aka my ex-boyfriend. "Okay. Have a good time Anna Bannana!" Daddy calls after us. Susan and I run back up stairs and start packing up my bags and we head out the door... While we are on our way to drop off my night bags at Susan's house we stopped by Jared's house to see how the decorations were coming. I stayed in the car because well, Susan is not a virgin and well she likes to do the dirty any where she really can. (Even in my bedroom on a Saturday night with my parents home... But we will get to that later... Or maybe its best not to talk about that together...)

We finally got to the party. It was really loud and noisy. I saw a lot of the popular girls from school here but they just seemed to ignore me like everyone else does these days. I'm not popular at all. I'm not nerdy either but I'm what you would wanna call "in the mid" in the mid is a short term for in the middle of all the groups and I'm not actually "labeled" but if you wanna give a person like me a name it should be "in the mid". Susan on the other hand is as far as a popular girl can get. She dates jocks and guys from the football team. Yep, that's Susan. Cheerleader and president of the school. But she hangs out with me... Yeah I don't know why either. Maybe it is because I look like I could have made the "pop crew" but chose not to be labeled. So here I am... Susan grabs my hand and we headed for the bar. (A bar in a house... I know what you're thinking. Wow! And not to mention a beach house.) Jared has a Butler in his house (Mansion) and this one was odd. It was like he didn't stand out. He was a tall skinny guy with dark black hair that touched his shoulders and he had a very tight muscular body figure. Hot right? He spoke first "Ladies, need somthin' ?" Hell-ah-hottie. Susan yanks her big pink purse (from Gucci... Of course.) over her shoulder and starts demanding beers. I looked around and noticed that Jared was standing on the stairs waving a (what it looked like) condom in the air at Susan. I glanced at Susan then back at Jared who was still waving it in the air. The Butler gives us our drinks and then I knew Susan would blow me off. "Anna..." She was silently looking at Jared with a smirk. "No no no! You can not ditch me!" Susan giggled "Oh for heavens sake! Anna-Bannana-" I cut her off... Which it makes her mad when I do that. "You swore to me you'd never say that nickname!" Susan giggled again "Ah, shit Anna... I want to hang out with you so hella-bad but Jared needs the 'V'! It's my duty as the girlfriend to give it to him!" I never wanted this satan-wanna-be life for her. "Fine do it with your boyfriend..." With ought looking back, Susan made her way up stairs with Jared leaving me at the bar with... The Butler! And because Susan and I were so close to the bar, the Butler listened to our whole conversation... He glanced at me once and smiled. "What do you suppose I have to do to get into that pretty little dress of yours?" Why me? Really God why me? "You aren't the right guy for me" he looked down at the ground in sorrow as if I had stuck a knife in his heart. He looked back up and grinned. "I get off at 2:30... Why don't we hang out around that time? You will be around won't you?" Ohmygoodness! He doesn't get it does he? "Ha-ha that's a slick joke." He glared at me and I spoke up again "You're joking right?" "No... I think you're beyond beautiful. So I'm asking you out." Not that I'm not ready for this its just that I don't wanna do this... "Thanks, but honestly, I would rather sit at home and watch Netflix." He looked at the clock above my head and then back at me. "How about I give you my number and you can decide what to do with it sweet cakes." He reached in his pocket and pulled out a receipt. And then behind the counter, a pen... I smiled when he gave it to me. "Thanks I guess I'll see you 'round sometime?" He grinned and said, "I hope I'll be seeing you sooner then later." I didn't glance back at him when I went up the stairs to find the room Susan and Jared were banging in. There was something really special about him, maybe it was the way his lips curled when he spoke or the way he really wanted to see me so bad... The night ended when Susan started snoring beside me. I looked up at the ceiling and prayed "God, if you love me at all please let their be hope for me and..." What was the Butler's name? He didn't give me his name! "the Butler/Bartender..." I didn't realize how stupid that sounded until when the morning came. Susan had left early this morning to help Jared clean up his beach house. I don't want to think they would be doing anything more at the crack-a-dawn! Gosh... I cant let that bother me so much. Why do I care Susan even sleeps around with Jared? I never really liked Jared. I'm not jealous. I could be concerned but I- ... The door bell buzzed. I ran to the door and looked into the peep whole, "Butler man... How did he even fine me" I whispered under my breath. I opened the door. He grinned and said "Good morning sweet cakes!" "I wished you wouldn't call me that... Why are you here?" I asked. His grin widened. "I knew you wouldn't text me so I asked Jared to tell Susan to let me come over and hang out with you. It took awhile to negotiate with the girl until Jared had a good idea."  I chuckled and said "We can hang out at the grill across from McDonalds if you'd like." He reached in his pocket and pulled out car keys. "Okay my motorcycle is parked right there" He points to Susan's drive way. He walked over to the motorcycle and grabbed a helmet. I walked to over to him and he handed me the helmet... The grill was called "Bonos" and it had cute figurines on the shelves. The Butler walked me to the bar. The bartender noticed us and said "Well... If it isn't T Jackson. It's been awhile since you've walked in here." The Butler nodded "Yeah well I guess it's time to bury the hatchet. What do you say old man?" The bartender just glared at him and then just glanced at me. "Stay as long as you'd like... But I ask of you no trouble." The Butler nodded again "Two corona's please... And make them with lemon!" He yelled after the bartender. "You have not gave me a name to call you yet... It's T-something right?" I said. He stared at the coaster on the bar in front of him and waited a few minutes then spoke up "You call me Thomas... Will you?" "Yeah fine... And you never asked for my  name." I spat at him. The bartender gave us our drinks and he still didn't answer. He took a sip and said "What is your name?" "Anna... Just Anna." He took a big gulp and got off the stool. He put his drink down up put his hand out to me palm up. "Dance with me Anna!" The bartender looked over at Thomas and turned yp the radio, smiling at me... "Unsteady" started to play and I took his hand in mine... We danced (what it seemed like) all night long... Thomas took me home after a few more drinks. Actually, we both grabbed a cab together and crashed at his house not mine... I smelled bacon in my dream but how do I smell bacon in my dr- Thomas kissed my neck and layed a pillow behind my head and a tray on my lap. "Good morning sweet cakes. Have some breakfast." He gave my hair a little ruffle and walked back into the kitchen. I carefully put the tray on his side of the bed and looked under the blanket... Thank you Jesus I was wereing my superman panties! I reached and felt between my legs to see if could tell if I was still a virgin... My whole was (what it seemed to me) still unusually small. I couldn't remember much of what happened last night and frankly, I don't want to know! I grabbed the tray and began to eat...