Car Accident

Infinity

I know I know I know... I haven't posted for a while... And I'm really sorry, so Ima make this chapter really long for you guys okay?! Btw did anyone else freak out super hard when Harry cut his hair? I know everybody (including me) was freakin out at school. I was like 😱😱😱🎉.
Haha anyways...
Harry's POV
I hope she's okay...
Why am I ever worrying about her?
I mean she's not my girlfriend anymore.
She's Niall's.
For infinity.
That should've been us.
She hurt my heart so bad...
I always lie awake worrying about her.
I wish I could stop.
I wish I could stop it all.
I wish I could go back to that night when she kissed Niall at that stupid party, and make the bottle land on me rather than him.
I wish I could have her back lying in my arms.
Counting the stars...
With Liam bein all protective...
And no accident.
It's felt like infinity without her.
Infinity... Hmmm...
I quickly got out of bed and went over to my guitar.
Niall has been teaching me some chords so I might be able to pull this off.
I grabbed some paper and pencils and began my song.
How many nights does it take to count the stars?
That's the time it would take to fix my heart
Oh, baby, I was there for you
All I ever wanted was the truth, yeah, yeah
How many nights have you wished someone would stay?
Lay awake only hoping they're okay
I never counted all of mine
If I tried, I know it would feel like infinity
Infinity, infinity, yeah
Infinity
Well, it's a start...
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"Hey Liam, how's Nat?" I asked casually, walking into the Payne apartment.
"She's still sleeping so I don't know."
I nodded and sat down on their couch.
"No feet on the table." Liam whined, kicking my feet off the coffee table.
Did I ever mention that they really are pains?
Get it?
No?
Okay... Moving on...
"I wrote a song." I blurted.
Liam raised his eyebrows at me.
"By yourself?" He asked.
"Yeah... It was hard but yeah."
I've never written a song by myself before, I've always had the boys to help, so it was a huge accomplishment for me.
"Wow Harry that's great. Can I hear it?" He asked.
I glanced down the hall, making sure Natalia was still asleep.
"Sure, wanna call the rest of the--" I was cut off by Louis and Niall walking into the apartment.
"Anyone order a Lou?" Niall laughed.
Louis poked his side and they both sat down next to us.
"Harry wrote a song guys." Liam stated.
They looked at me and Niall asked for the guitar chords so he could play with me.
I handed them their lyrics and I made sure Natalia was still asleep before we began playing.
[Niall]
"Down to Earth
Keep on falling when I know it hurts
Going faster than a million miles an hour
Trying to catch my breath some way, somehow
Down to Earth
It's like I'm frozen, but the world still turns
Stuck in motion, but the wheels keep spinning 'round
Moving in reverse with no way out"

[Liam]
"And now I'm one step closer to being
Two steps far from you
When everybody wants you
Everybody wants you"

[Me]
"How many nights does it take to count the stars?
That's the time it would take to fix my heart
Oh, baby, I was there for you
All I ever wanted was the truth, yeah, yeah
How many nights have you wished someone would stay?
Lie awake only hoping they're okay
I never counted all of mine
If I tried, I know it would feel like infinity
Infinity, infinity, yeah
Infinity"

Eyes can't shine
Unless there's something burning bright behind
Since you went away, there's nothing left in mine
I feel myself running out of time"

[Louis]
"And now I'm one step closer to being
Two steps far from you
When everybody wants you
Everybody wants you"

[All]
"How many nights does it take to count the stars?
That's the time it would take to fix my heart
Oh, baby, I was there for you
All I ever wanted was the truth, yeah, yeah
How many nights have you wished someone would stay?
Lie awake only hoping they're okay
I never counted all of mine
If I tried, I know it would feel like infinity
Infinity, infinity, yeah
Infinity"

"How many nights does it take to count the stars?
That's the time it would take to fix my heart
Oh, baby, I was there for you
All I ever wanted was the truth, yeah, yeah
How many nights have you wished someone would stay?
Lie awake only hoping they're okay
I never counted all of mine
If I tried, I know it would feel like infinity
Infinity, infinity, yeah
Infinity"
The boys all turned to me when we finished.
"Mate... That song--" Niall began.
"It was about me wasn't it." Natalia finished, coming into the room, accompanied by her nurse, Penny.
Shit she heard that?
"Um I should go..." I trailed, grabbing my guitar, getting ready to leave.
Natalia grabbed my arm and turned me around.
I knew her movement hurt her because her face looked pained.
I just wanted to take all her hurt away.
"Harry. We need to talk." She stated, pulling me into her room.
She sat down on her bed and motioned for me to sit down next to her.
Penny went to the furthest corner of her room to give us some privacy but still be here.
"Harry, can you explain that song to me? You said everything was fine, and I believed you. But then you wrote this song about... About someone who basically took your heart and ripped it out and stomped all over it. Did I really do that to you?" She asked, sounding very hurt.
"Yeah. Actually. You did. Nat, I loved you. I still love you. You went behind my back with my best mate and didn't tell me about it, then because of me, got run over and when you woke up, you had no idea about our past relationship. You don't remember all the times I held you when you were upset or scared. You don't remember how many times I told you I loved you. You don't remember how I blew off an awards ceremony to take you to your prom. You don't remember how I always took you out every Friday to dinner and a walk in the park. I even payed the paparazzi to stay away from us every Friday so that we could actually be alone. You don't remember all the times with me. You don't remember how much you loved me. And you'll never remember. That's what pains me." I explained.
"Y-You did all that?" She asked, astonished.
"I did. You can ask any of the boys. I did all of that. For you." I replied.
"Oh Harry..." She trailed, hugging me lightly to not hurt herself.
I hugged her back.
I could hug her forever.
She finally pulled away teary-eyed.
"Nat don't cry." I told her.
"I just feel really bad about this. I mean you loved me and still love me, but I love Niall and I just wish I could make everybody happy." She sobbed.
"I know, you've always been like that. You're a people pleaser, but Nat, it's not your fault. I mean you did leave me for Niall, but if you truly love Niall, then be with him. If you weren't for me, I'll find someone else who is."
Wow... Maybe I should take my own advice.
But it's gonna be hard to move on from a girl I've been dating since the sixth grade.
She nodded, "Whoever you do find though, is going to be so much better than me. Because she isn't going to leave you for your best friend."
I felt really bad for her.
She doesn't remember anything from our relationship, and now I'm telling her what she did to me and she is horrified with herself for it.
"Natalia, I'm never gonna be completely over you. But I need you to stop feeling bad. You left me for a reason. And if you are supposed to be with Niall, then you're supposed to be with Niall. I'll find someone else. All in good time okay?" I told her.
"Okay." She nodded.
She wiped her tears and I hugged her before I left.
"I'm still sorry." She stated when I got to the door.
"I know," I replied, not turning around, "I'm sorry too. I'll always love you, Nat. For infinity."
Then I left.
What I said was true. It was all true.
I will move on eventually, but I will always love her.
For infinity.

Okay so that wasn't too long, but I tried, I didn't really have much time to write this so I'm sorry. I'll try updating every week but like I said, "try." I hope you guys liked the chapter! Please vote and comment, ily all.
All my heart,
~ Olivia ❤️🤘🏻