I Know This Can Work

Confusion

Hey everybody, sorry this took so long to update. I also decided to make it just Dahvie's point of view so it's a bit shorter this time. Much love, and thanks for reading. Please enjoy!

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- Dahvie POV -

I slumped down against Jayy's door and rested my head against my knees, tears dripping onto my phones screen as I scrolled through the messages, tapping one. My conversation with Mia, our merchandise n shit director chick, popped up and I wiped the screen clean with my hand. Unsteadily I tapped out a quick message with my thumbs, sending it to Mia before standing shakily. I sighed heavily, feeling pathetic for spilling to her that I'm in love with Jayy.

She replied a few seconds later with, "Woah.. When did this happen??"

I sighed and replied quickly, "Just come over (/)~(\)," then went downstairs to lay on the couch.

A while later Mia burst through the front door. She closed it and came over to me, gently shaking my shoulder. I'd fallen asleep waiting for her. My eyes opened slowly and I looked at her in the face, her nose nearly touching mine. I hugged Mia tightly and sighed heavily, sitting.

"What's up buttercup? How'd all this happen suddenly?" She asked kindly, wrapping her arms tightly around my torso.

I shrugged slightly and spoke in a quiet voice, "I dunno, I was just thinking about it... Then I blurted it out when he saw my cuts because he was mad."

"You told him you cut because you love him?" Mia sounded thoroughly confused.

I shook my head and explained that nights' event to her properly. She nodded slowly after I finished.

"I ship it," She said firmly.

"Uh... What?" I tilted my head and leaned back to look at her.

"I mean that I support you and Jayy as a couple. To ship two people is to basically make a pairing that you think works really well, but isn't likely to happen. Like in TV shows or with bands, in this case. Ships belong to shows which have fandoms containing fanfictions basically derived from the fictional couples known as ships. Then there's canons, which protect our ships." She explained this quite elaborately.

"You're on Tumblr too much, Mia," I couldn't help but laugh slightly, "I don't need to know all about that."

"It's interesting though! There are even fanfictions about you and Jayy. Your pairing is Jahvie! The person who's name comes first in the combination is usually the dominant figure," Mia giggled childishly and I frowned slightly.

"You fangirls are so weird." I muttered and stood up from her tight embrace, walking into the kitchen to grab something to eat.

Mia followed me and snatched the box of Oreos I was holding, tearing the cardboard tab over the top off, "It's not just girls, Dahvie. Boys support you two as well as in other fandoms. Most of them want you though." She stuffed an Oreo into her mouth and I shook my head.

"You need milk, dude," I stuck my tongue out and went for the milk. I'd froze as I stared into the fridge, hearing someone descending the stairs. I bit my lip and Mia was quiet.

The many chains hanging around her hips jingled as she moved to peek around the corner of the kitchen entry. A high pitched squeal came from her and a smile rang in her voice, "Hey Jayy!"

I sighed heavily and shut the fridge after getting the milk, plonking the carton down on the counter. I leaned against the door of the cupboard, shutting my eyes as I remained still. Mia and Jayy talked happily for a while, about hair dye and other things happening in the world.

"Where's Dahvie?" I heard Jayy ask. My muscles stiffened at the mention of my name.

"He's in the kitchen getting us milk to drown these Oreos in," Mia replied causally. A second later Jayy came in with Mia following, waving around her hands frantically, her pale face seeming even whiter in surprise. Her expression came out as confused. She mouthed, "I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I didn't know he was here!"

I slightly shook my head and stood again, slipping past Jayy to get some glasses. I felt his hand brush against my arm and my cheeks reddened ever so slightly. Nobody said anything for a while. I poured milk for Mia and I then looked at Jayy. "Want some?" I said in an odd hoarse voice, "I know you like Oreos."

Jayy's face was a mask of indifference and he shrugged, but I could see emotions swirling in his eyes. He wasn't wearing contacts, so his pale blue eyes shone brightly at me. I looked away and got him some milk as well. This was so fucking awkward! The silence was murder on me, not helping my already pained state. I gripped the edge of the counter and bowed my head for a minute, since the room had suddenly begun spinning. Anxiety choked me and I shivered a bit.

"Dahv?" Mia's voice echoed in my ears and I cringed from the noise.

"Hmm...?" I straightened up again as my head cleared. Jayy and Mia were both staring at me with dumbfounded looks. "Oh... I was just... Dizzy. Sorry."

I grabbed the box of Oreos with shaky hands but stood still yet again as I felt someone's hands on my shoulders. Jayy's voice came gently at my ear, his warm breath making the hair at my neck stand on end. "Are you sure?"

I nodded slowly, turning to him. His eyes gave me a look of concern and I shrugged slightly, "Don't worry, I'm okay Jayy..." I looked down again. Then I felt Jayy's fingers at my chin, tilting it up slowly. He was biting his lip in such a cute way, I blushed deeply. His face was maybe an inch from mine. The next second, Jayy closed the gap. His lips were against mine, gentle but intent, causing me to lose my train of thought all together. I closed my eyes and he made a move to deepen the kiss. I didn't protest one bit. My heart was pounding in my ears and questions were shooting through my mind like arrows, none carrying an answer. When what seemed like an eternity had passed, I felt Jayy's lips leaving mine slowly. I took a quiet breath and looked at him, stunned. "What..."