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Ch.32

"Elizabeth, our lives are so confusing right now. Why can't we live normal lives were all we have to worry about are grades and achene? Why. I ask myself that everyday. Why did it have to be Ryan and I. There was so many other rich families that Bill could of pick to screw up their lives but he picked us." Adam said while breaking eye contact.

"Adam..." I started but he cut me off.

"I don't know what to think anymore. That day on the bridge that I stopped you, there was so much stuff going through my head. I wanted to do the same as you. I wanted to jump with you, but I thought of Ryan. He wouldn't want me to do that. And I thought of you. How smart you were and how Ryan knew we could trust you. And I thought of your lips, and how you bite them softly when your thinking hard. So I followed you, and I couldn't let you end something so perfect. " Adam said

"Adam...I don't know. A few months ago I would of given anything to get hit by a bus. It sounds messed up but if I would have got hit by a bus and died my mom wouldn't of known I wanted to die. I would have gotten out easy nobody would have judge me for doing it myself. I wanted my life to just stop. but now I don't. I want to live. I want to live for my mom, Jason, Alice, Ryan and I want to live for you. I feel so stupid for only thinking of self then...but... it needed to stop" my eyes started to water

"I don't blame you for wanting to. I know how it feels. but I just want you to know I love you. I have loved you from they day Ryan said your name. We were just so young in the prison that Bill made to blackmail my parents. He said we can trust Elizabeth Parker my only friend she'll find us."

Adams face changed and a small smile formed on his face.

"I remembered you. I remember in kindergarten how at recess you hated when I came over and bother you and Ryan. I never understood how Ryan could make friends that easy I tried so hard to make you like me." Adam said looking up at me with a smile

I laughed quietly.

"I remember that too. you made my stomach fill with butterflies and my palms wet. I didn't understand that. Ryan did." I smiled

Ryan knew I like Adam in kindergarten and he knew Adam liked me he tried to explain it to me once and I laughed so hard my stomach hurt.

"Yah, it felt like in kindergarten Ryan knew everything. Everyone liked him." Adam said

"Now everyone likes you, your the most popular kid in school. You don't have to worry about people liking you now." I said

"Yah, its just great all the girls stare at me when I walk down the hallway like I forgot my pants or something. I try not to notice but they all look like zombies."

I giggled

"beside you." he added

I smiled. I was proud he never caught me looking at him.

"Well there was that one time in English when everyone was reading and you kept staring and laughing." he laughed to himself

I remembered what he was taking about.

"That was when I looked over and you were trying to act like you were reading but your book was upside down." I laughed

Adam laughed too.

"I told you I really can't read and I needed you." he said

"That's the only reason you need me?" I asked with a grin.

"No." Adam paused then stepped closer to me.

"I need you because I get this feeling when I'm around you like maybe there is hope left in this screwed up world. Maybe there is a reason to live. I want to hug you ever second of every minute that is humanly possible."

"Interesting. I get the same feeling when I'm around you. but I also want to do this..."

I lend forward and kissed him hoping he would kiss me back. My lips slammed into his, hard but soft at the same time. My heart was racing in my chest faster and faster. Was this happening? Was I really kissing Adam in his mansion after taking about his kidnapped brother? it all didn't seem real.

At first for maybe a second I could feel that he was in shock that I kissed him but he reacted quickly and kissed me back.

I wrapped my arms around his sweaty neck. He was a little taller than me so I had to get up on my tippy toes to reach him, but I managed.

I felt a soft hand on my waist softly rubbing it. His touch gave me chills down my back.

Our lips flowed together like they were meant to be. I had never kiss a guy before but I thought I was doing pretty good.

Adams tongue brushed up against my lips like it was knocking on a door. I nervously excepted it and our tongues danced together.

My feet were getting tired but my lips weren't so I pulled Adam closer to me maybe a little to fast because I almost fell backwards into a small table in his room. I bumped into it and a lamp fell off but Adam and I both didn't seem to care. We laughed but kept kissing. I ran my fingers through his hair.

Finally we had to pull away because the lack of oxygen. Our lips kindly parted and we both gasped for air.

"Sorry, I had to do that." I said I said in between breaths

"Don't be sorry. I was thinking of how I would kiss you." he said taking in air.

We looked up at each other and smiled.

"Was that your first kiss?" he asked

"Maybe." I said self concisely

"mine too." he said in a quiet voice

I looked up and smiled.

"really?" I asked

He nodded self concisely.

Then we both said simultaneously

"I liked it." we both laughed

"I like that a lot. It took my mind somewhere else."

"so you thought I did okay?" I asked

Adam smiled at me and lend in closer. He put his sweet hand under my chin and lifted it up. Adam smiled and then kissed me again softly.

"does that answer your question?" he asked

I nodded and we went back to kissing.