I Kept my Promise

The new boy

*olivia*
Again I had another sleepless night, I didn't put on the hard drive yet, I'm too scared that if I see Kyle moving even on a video I'll loose it for sure, but today I wish everything will go back to to normal but what is normal exactly? But whatever I'm just going to school, I walk to school now, it gives me time to think . But today things were different like When got to school I ran into someone a boy I think but I didn't care, so I kept walking,
"Omygod I'm so sorry!"
I sighed at the boy and looked up at him, he looks exactly like Kyle with the same dark brown hair and blue eyes,
"That's alright it won't hurt as much as it did.Bye Kyle.."
Everyone gasped in the hallway, Kyle.... I can't take it anymore he's just in my imagination, HE'S NOT REAL! HE' S NEVER COMING BACK! HE'S DEAD, HE'S....GONE!

I ran back to my house, it felt like someone was coming after me but again I must be imagining it,
I go to my room and start throwing everything around slide everything off my desk and nightstand ripped up my posters took the pictures off of my wall everything looked like a mess, just like my brain, I start to cry more and I just drop to the ground and pull my knees up to my chest and put my hands on my face and start screaming " HES GONE.HES DEAD.I CANT TAKE IT-I CANT take it anymore..."
My voice getting quieter, just then someone came into my room, Kyle from school today, I didn't say anything just put my hands back over my face and he came hug me,
"It will be okay liv"
I hug him back and cry on his shoulder,
"Please never leave me again, Kyle, please"
"I-I promise, liv, im sorry but I'm not Kyle, please don't shut me out I can help you..."
"There's no point of helping something that's broken, bye Kyle,"
I say and push him out of my room even thought I told him not to leave me.
I go on my messed up bed and cry myself to sleep, wishing he was here and I wouldn't be going through this, I'm breaking my promise, I'm getting depressed I'm shutting people out I'm not moving on, but then again how could I forget the love of my life, it's like telling me to forget to breath. I then see the hard drive that was meant for me, the one I was supposed to watch yesterday, I walk closer to it and stare at it till I picked it up and put it on my computer, then I see him there, talking...smiling...staring at me, telling me he loves me and that he's sorry, but I see him again there on the screen but everything is different it's not real he's not really there I need to forget him..