In my mind is hard to describe on what anyone is thinking even when depress; we all pretend that we are alright when in reality we are not. Always I pretend to be alright even around close people to people. My mind set is different when I think I think of negative thoughts all the time. Every time I fail I always have a feeling that it will stay like that forever. Depression has hit on me hard as I continue on my days In school,trying to find a job, or take interest in something. Lots of thoughts running through my mind about why am I here? And what was my purpose?
I never knew why I think that I should die and never be on this world but I have thought about ending my story so many times but never went through with it until I got older. I feared for my life I would be molested again or worse rape from any male at any age they could of hurt me mentally. The things that scare me still do as I can't leave out of the house without someone to come with me to go somewhere and if i was just to go to the backyard I still would like someone to come and be with me.
Never thought this world is dangerous and I need to keep myself safe away from people and just hide for the rest of my life or so I thought about it. Never the less I thought that it wouldn't come top this but i felt like death was the answer to solved all my problems.
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My Implus Control Disorder
Non-FictionThis is a true story of a brave woman who doesn't let her disorder get her down. Her story is told on what happen to her and how her supported family and friends help her along through life.
