PRETENDING

first meeting

*flashback*

He's handsome

He's cheerful

He's voice is amazing

He's eyes are like stars that twinkle in the night when he smiles

He's the definition of PERFECT

until...

He yelled at me

He pushed me around

He threatened me

He laughed at me and told me such things that caused me pain

He's sinister smile when he sees me on the floor crying

For short, he bullied me every single day when he's bored or feeling like it

Because of him I became an outcast, unwanted, alone

He's such a fake idol and I hate him, I despite him. Wait, no, I despite his personality, I hate his personality.

Yes, he WAS my bias but after all the things that he has done to me I don't know anymore, I feel numb and emotionless. He still bullies me but I now show no emotion.

*end of flashback*

All of the emotions came back as I sit at the edge of the rooftop in school. I sob as I looked at the beautiful sun setting down

the sky was majestic, orange, pink,blue colors where painted across the sky telling me to smile once more and be happy

I plugged in my headphones in full volume and lisened to their song

BUTTERFLY

such a masterpiece

Such angelic voices

But an awful attitude

He bullied me again just because he was bored again

I thought to myself...

What did I do to deserve this treatment?

Did I ever hurt somebody or someone in the past?

Is this karma?

The song fits perfectly to what I'm feeling

I want to be free

I want to be away from this place

And from him

I want to fly away and never return

All these thoughts keep replying in my mind as the song come to an end.

I took off the headphones and put it inside my bag

I heard a noise but brushed it off. I stood up and took one last glance at the sunset. I looks so peaceful, unlike my life

I walked closer to the edge as my feet moved on it's own, from the looks of it, my brain wants me to jump and end it all

"We're to young and immature to give up you idiot"

That voice! I know that voice!

I slowly turned back and saw him standing with both of his hands in his pockets, he removed his headphones and took a step closer to where I was standing

"What?" My voice suddenly became shaky

He looked away and scoffed.

"Do you really think that that's the solution to your problem?"

"Well no shit. Cutting didn't fucking help at all" I looked straight into his eyes as he was surprised a bit but quick hide it

"What's your name?"

"I thought I was popular for getting bullied?" I murmured

"Huh?"

"Nevermind. I'm Lu Jaemin"

"I'm Min--"

"Min Yoongi. I know who you are. A rapper from BTS" I cutt him off

"Good, but why aren't you fangirling or something?"

I scoffed as he crossed his arms

"I'm not a die hard fan"

"Obviously, well see ya later Minmin" he said and took off.

I sat down and realized that I just talked to one of the members and I'll be so dead if the crazy ass fangirls finds out. I let out a deep sigh and went home