I lead a double life you see
I am a perfect actress
I can fool just about anybody
I am the preppy girl
Always full of cheer
Though when I come home
I hear angry screams
My smile turns to fear
I party and I laugh
I dance the day away in grace
Yet at four in the morning
While everyone is asleep
I am still awake
Thinking of every cruel word
That grows and fester in my head
I frame my face with fake smiles
Never have I went out
Without my convincing happy mask
In my room, when I am all alone
A silver cuts my white skin
Letting all my crimson pain
Drip, drip, drip
I am kind to others
I am always helpful
And I am always wishing
I'll have that kindness one day
I make up stories
I tell the world
I am doing just fine
But inside my mind
It's a raging war
I am broken, worn and torn
Just waiting
For it to all stop
