Break Down My Walls.

Chapter 9: Goat Cheese

We went down the elevator in an awkward silence, until we got to the ground floor and exited heading in Chris's car, me sitting in the back, Winslet in the passenger seat and Chris in the driver's seat. Half of the car ride was an awkward silence as well but the other half's awkward silence was broken by Chris asking me a question I've been waiting for him to ask but didn't want him to ask.

"What were you doing at a college party?" he asked. I cursed under my breath.

"Uh- I- I was invited" I said. He looked at me through the review mirror giving me the "your-not-fooling-anybody-just-spill-the-truth" look. I sigh in defeat.

"Ugh fine! I snuck out, ok?! I wanted to get wasted to forget about my shitty life!" I said in a loud voice.

He pulled on the side of the road and turned to look at me while Winslet stayed silent minding her own business and I started to pick at my nails trying not to look at him.

"What do you mean shitty life besides your asshole of a brother?"

"Why the hell are you even questioning me, you're not my dad" I say in a low voice.

"I'm not, but I do care about you" he said with a feeling of sympathy flashing on his face.

"UGH! YOU! MY BROTHER, SETH, MY SISTER, MY DAD, THE WHOLE GOD DAMN SCHOOL! WOULD YOU STOP LYING AND LOOK AROUND FOR A MINUTE TO NOTICE THAT LYING WONT GET YOU ANYWHERE IT WONT HELP YOUR SELF ESTEEM IT WONT MAKE ANYONE TRUST YOU MORE! AND AS A MATTER OF FACT FROM THIS DAY ON I WONT LET ANYONE FUCKING TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME OR ABUSE ME OR TREAT ME LIKE FUCKING CRAP OR LIE TO ME AND IT STARTS WITH SETH! AND IF MY BROTHER DARES TO SPEAK TO ME I WILL FUCKING PUNCH HIS FACE IN" I yell breathlessly, Winslet and Chris looking at me with wide eyes.

Chris just turns around and turns on the ignition driving back home and then once we got there I run out of the car and into the house slamming the door shut and going under my covers letting sleep take over, because of the lack of sleep I had.

*After the Christmas vacation*

Literally the whole Christmas vacation I was in my room teaching myself self-defense from YouTube videos and trying to become braver and more confident and also playing with Oreo occasionally except on new year's eve, when I was forced to go to this event with my dad and Chris and the rest as a "family" so yeah that's how I had to spent my vacation.

Finally it was the end of the vacation and today was the first day we go back to school. My first class is Biology so I head to my locker to grab my books and then go to class grateful that Seth wasn't in this class. I start on my worksheet for the circulatory system and then once I'm done with it I give it to the teacher. Since I'm one of the first three people that finished I take out my book and start drawing randomly and end up with a girl holding a rose giving it to a guy instead of the opposite. The next session we have is chemistry and sadly very sadly Seth is in this class too so I'm just gonna have to deal with it. The teacher starts explaining about esterification and I kind of zone out until he brings up something about a project.

"So, listen up everyone. I'm giving you two days to write a lab report about esters and you will be doing this in pairs. Don't worry its not hard since I'm going to write down what you need to insert in the report. Sadly for you though I'm going to be pairing you up depending on the first letter of your family name and no changes except if its critical so no 'she's my best friend and were close so we'll do the project better' talk because that's not critical. I'm going to be naming the pairs after I write down what will be needed in the report so please all of you copy off what I'm about to write." He concludes after everyone sighs with disappointment when he says that we can't pick our pairs. This means that I'm either ending up with Julia Watson, James Wester, or Seth White.