(warning: some people might get triggered by this chapter, if you are depressed I advise you NOT to read this chapter)
US sans POV
I sat in silence in my room, I haven't eaten, drank or slept ever since error passed away, it's been hard, I can't do this.
Blood covered my fingers as I bandaged the cuts on my arm, blood spots were all over the floor and bed sheets, I don't know how much blood I've lost. I lost count after the 20th cut.
I lay back in bed, I just looked at the ceiling, if I was just faster I would have made it in time. Why couldn't I make it? Why? Why am I so useless?!
tears streamed down my face, I looked over at the side of the bed error normally slept, the side we would have sex on......
Error was sleeping soundly on his side of the bed, I grined and gently got ontop of him. His eyes twitched slightly as I unzipped his pants.
His eyes opened and he looked at me blushing "Sans? Need any help sweetheart?" he smiled, I nodded smileing and he removed his pants for me "no biting" I nodded again and gently sucked his member making him moan my name quietly.
He gripped onto the sheets as I sucked, I made sure to go all the way down to the base and use my tongue to tease him lightly, he moaned louder "ahh! Y-you're such a tease" I giggled and kept teasing him with my tongue.
It didn't take long for him to get close, he wrapped his legs around me to help with my sucking, he came shortly and I swallowed as much as possible, letting the rest drip from my mouth "fuck, that was good, you're a natural at this sans" error told me, I smiled and kissed him sweetly "I love you error"
I love you, that's all I really wanted him to remember me saying, they were his last word to me. I hid my face in the pillows and sobbed for a good 20 minutes.
After crying my eyes out I looked over at the draw on error's side of the room. I got up and opened the too draw, I took out the gun and loaded it with 5 bullets. Don't make me stop, I can't handle it, I just want the pain to stop, I just want to see error smile again, I want to see opal and Cody playing happily.
I went to the jar with errors dust in and put a ring next to it, I never got the chance, I will never have the chance, error is with opal waiting for me, I mean like, what do I have left to live for right? I'm nothing to anyone, I'm a useless useless useless child, the morst worthless child to ever live, so why keep living if I'm nothing? No-one would miss me and no-one would care, I'll be with error and opal......opal
My grip on error's hand loosed alot, he looked down at me with fear in his eyes "hold on berry, you can do this, you're strong enough to get through this!" error told me in quick suspense. I was struggling to keep my eyes open at this point, I was in so much pain, I could hear error calling me, trying to keep me awake, the heart monitor was at a steady pace from what I could hear and you could hear two new born children crying.
Ink smiled down at me "congratulations, it's a boy and a girl, and they're unharmed" I smiled weakly and ink handed me my children, he had cleaned them and wrapped them both in a blanket "they're so beautiful error" I turned my head slightly to look at error, for the first time I saw him with tears in his eyes "yeah, you three are the prettiest things in the room" error said with tears down his face "I love you error, thank you for giving me the life I wanted"
That was one of the happiest moments in my life. When the children were born I felt so happy, and now they've been taken away from me, I put the gun to my head and smiled "I'll be there soon" I said quietly before someone nocked at the door.
"KID! Look I know what you're going through, fresh just said he had a feeling you were going to lose it and it looks like I got here in time. Look we all miss error kiddo, fresh and ink are going through the loss of a family member, I can help you too if you just don't do anything stupid!" fell tried to convince me to stop, but it wouldn't work "I'm sorry fell, a life without error isn't a life at all" he kicked the door open after that "ked we're all going through alot. I don't think I can handle the guilt of watching you do this so please there has to be a better way!" I shook my head "there is not better way! I've lose everything qnd everyone I care about! I lose error, opal, Cody, everyone! There's nothing left for me so why live?! Why live in a world of pain and suffering without my glitchy sunshine!?" he fell silent, fell didn't know what to say to me, he had never seen me so suicidal before and it must have scared him "berry please, this isn't what error would want, he would want you to keep living a happy life" I didn't care anymore, I smiled and looked at him with tears streaming down my face "well this is one shity life then"
I pulled the trigger "NO SWAP!"
