Do you remember?

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July 4 2011
San Francisco, California
Zoë's POV

I was in my room practicing singing and playing my guitar. And then I started to sing my favorite song by Troye Sivan, The fault in our stars. (A/U: I know the The Fault in our Stars was not an actual movie in 2011 but it's the only song that was go with this chapter so sorry!)

The weight
Of a simple human emotion
Weighs me down
More than the tank ever did

The pain
It's determined and demanding
To ache, but I'm okay...

I didn't know that this song actually meant something to me but it finally came back to me. The memories of me and my friends and family. Well when we were a family.

And I don't want to let this go
I don't want to lose control
I just want to see the stars with you

And I don't want to say goodbye
Someone tell me why
I just want to see the stars with you

When me and Braylon went to the park one time we were on the swings and then it finally got dark so we watch the stars. There is nothing to watch but look at them. But it was finally time to go. I didn't want to say goodbye but we would see each other again.

You lost, a part of your existence
In the war, against yourself
Oh, the lights,
They light up in lights of sadness
Telling you, it's time to go

[Chorus:]
And I don't want to let this go
I don't want to lose control
I just want to see the stars with you

And I don't want to say goodbye
Someone tell me why
I just want to see the stars with you

I was in my room crying my eyes out and couldn't stop crying. I'm guessing someone called Braylon because he ran in my room trying to comfort me. And it worked. He said something the was the best thing that he ever said. "The stars can light up in lights of sadness." I couldn't let that kind of best friend go.

Don't give it up just yet stay grand
For one more minute, don't give it up just yet
Stay grand

[Chorus:]
(I don't want to let) And I don't want to let this go
(I don't want to lose) I don't want to lose control
(And I just want to see) I just want to see the stars (the stars with you) with you

And I don't want to say (don't want to say) goodbye
Someone tell me why (tell me why)
I just want to see the stars (the stars with you) with you

I was at school getting anxious about the state test coming up. It's so stressful to take. But Braylon said don't give up on this and don't stress just do your best.

With you

I won't let this go.

I never knew tears were streaming down my face but all I need to know is that I have a lot of things ahead.