Going Into The Deep End

I dont belong

I don't belong in this world I am a waste of air and space. What do I do now,do I just sit her like a nothing or do I do something about it.
It kept happening that same person keeps pushing it. I cry every night I'm sick of it. The next morning I wake up breathing heavily from having a dream. I was running and running and I finally lost the cops I saw a big cliff and the ocean was in front of me and then I woke up from that dream it was so weird.
      That morning I was feeling glum and angry I threw some lamps and plates that happened for like 5 minutes. My mom left for work an hour before. I went to the bathroom and was tearing threw everything looking for a blade while I was crying,I opened the tool box and found a  razor blade....... I then pushed up my sleeves,sat on the shower ledge and I pushed the blade up against my skin and ran it threw a line. You could here the blood dripping one drop at a time. Drip, drop, drip, drop. I didn't bother putting bandages on I pushed down my sleeves and went to school.