korean_kitty's Diary

Enough Of The Dares...

I have made a preemptive strike on all of those who use my secret identity against me so...
There's my face and here's my digital diary!

05/12/16

My crush, who is tall, kind of pasty, and is in band with me, stayed next to me when we were listening to our sight readings rehearsal from 3 months ago.
The band director said that we could move out of our assigned seats to sit with our friends and I just turned to face him saying:

"We're friends, right?" and I was hoping he would smile his smile that makes my heart flutter slightly but he just said:

"I'm not moving," while smiling a less heart flutter inducing smile and staring straight ahead.

I think it was one of those smiles that occurs when you're embarrassed and are trying not to smile. But it was probably nothing.

His friend sat next to him and his friend was just as tall as him which kind of made me feel really small. I was on my crush (can I just say his real name? I don't think he has a Wattpad or even knows about it)--

I was on Gino's left and his friend was on his right. It was sort of fun and awkward but I have that kind of personality that relieves any stress or awkwardness...
So I started drawing and left him to make his snide and witty remarks about the wrong notes coming from the different sections in the band.

He once leaned in closer to see what I was drawing and he was almost 3 inches from me. It was a drawing of him and that was why I kept inspecting him and his face.♥

Disregard that extra figure at the end of the previous sentence.

Any who... He was also trying to get a picture of Mr. Kline, the band director, making weird faces at the awful sounds from our first time practicing a piece.

He did something to his phone to make it switch to the front, where you can take a picture of yourself without actually turning your phone around, and tilted it in my direction.
I saw him discreetly do that in his lap and looked up at him while he was looking at me in his phone and I guess he knew I wasn't looking at Mr. Kline.

I was looking at him and he looked up at me exhaling sharply, signaling that he was laughing, and it was... I don't want to say cute because he's a man/boy who's too old for "cute". He was hot... he made my heart smile is the best way to describe the moment.

Can you flip the camera thing to face you and have a video like that or can it only be in normal camera mode that it can happen? Please respond because I am super curious if he took my picture quickly when I blinked or if he was recording.

Oh my gosh! I forgot to tell you about what happened earlier before everything happened! God he is so freaking... hot? (I need a better word for him)

When Gino walked into the band hall I didn't notice him beside me until he dumped the saxophonist's that sits beside Gino, third chair that beat me in a challenge, stuff on the ground and took that chair for his own. The third chair guy was indifferent and didn't really care because he was standing and talking with his friends.

Gino took that seat and placed it next to mine and I sort of inched closer during a disguise to move forward so I was out of the way of people behind me trying to move. He wasn't wearing his jacket like he normally does and his bare forearms were exposed.

Gino had his hands in his lap examining his arms. I told him that I could see his veins and that it was really gross and he just started clenching his fists so that they popped out even more while smiling.
I turned my head and looked back at him mocking disgust because it was gross, but it was attractive (I actually had to look up a synonym in Google for him) how he was flexing his muscles for me.

He kept doing that and I just gave up the whole 'gross your veins are showing' thing and even poked a vein with the tip of my pencil's eraser.

He looked so freaking muscular! That's also something to describe him. He has a bit of muscle that he apparently keeps hidden under his jacket♥♥♥

This time I'm okay with the hearts at the end of my sentence as punctuation.

If by some magical happenstance, Gino or his friend, long haired blond dude, sees this...
you don't know who I am or what I look li--

Fluorine!
(Reference to an element's symbol. If you don't understand why I'm saying that, I'm sure one of my tag books has why I do that and what I'm doing)

If you do see this Gino's friend, that I may or may not have forgotten the name of, don't tell Gino. Or do, unless he has a girlfriend, then don't, and come talk to me privately before band.

Is Gino's lock screen, the one with the girl on front, his girlfriend or sister? Does he even have a sister? I know he has a brother.

And if this is Gino... shut up and don't say anything about my synonyms! That was just a joke...
Yeah. Please don't tell anyone.

And if there is anyone from school reading this, just know that if you comment on this I will track you down by your name and find out how to make your life at school harder. And don't think about telling Gino or try confessing your own 'love' for him, he's mine!

Unless Gino is reading this still and then I meant fine. You are a fine saxophonist!🎷

Love you guys (and Gino),
korean_kitty