KiDNAppEd

C11: Questions

The five of us sat for a few hours discussing and finalizing the plan with a few different conversations about whatever popped up in our heads. James would do these little cute things like pass me notes like the ones everyone passed in elementary or middle school but he would also touch me on the booty. Only a few people liked that and I happened to be one of them. I thought we had a fantastic plan. I just hoped it works.

We decided to get a good night sleep then in the morning, we would start the plan. I sat up on the couch thinking that my part is the hardest part of the plan. Regina and I EWW! Honestly don't even wanna think about it because I literally hate her. She just does dumb and I just couldn't believe that she would do something so sick and twisted to us. I knew we had our problems and fights but was it really this deep. Up until I met her I never knew someone so disrespectful and rude. She had no self-respect but maybe it was because she could sense her parents were gone most of her life since middle school. At least this is the last year seeing her. My mind started to drift to something else much more better. James.

I mean what if James and I actually date? To think what if we actually make it together as one? But what about college? We don't plan on going to the same college I don't think. I sure wouldn't let him change his plans for me and I would think if he allowed me to change my plans for me then he isn't the one for me at all. If the colleges are in the same start that's not bad but if one of our colleges is out of state, would we even be able to stand it? Things can change soo fast in a relationship. Long distance relationship or just break up? We would just now start dating I don't even know how stronger we would be as one. What if down the line he stops liking me? It's happened to me before so why wouldn't it happen again. I told them I wasn't in love with him but what if I'm already in love with him? What if he breaks my heart? I don't want to go through another heartbreak like my past one. Why am I so scared to fall in love again? I just gotta try again. It shouldn't be that hard. Right?

James enters without my hearing and wraps his arms around me from behind "Wassup, what are you thinking about? You seem like you're in a deep thought" He said, sounding concerned.

I look over my shoulder into his light brown eyes. Man, he makes me smile. "Just thinking about some stuff."

He lets go and stands me up so that I'm facing him, "Likeeee?"

I looked down and walked towards the door "I feel like taking a walk wanna join me on this lovely walk around the building? We both laughed, loudly. Sh shh we'll wake the other but let's go so we can talk."

"Alright let's blast." He grabs my waist and we start walking. I laughed.

"Well I was thinking about the plan and how I have to be closer with Regina but then I got tired of letting her consume my mind and I started thinking about you."

"So you want me to consume your mind? I like it. I mean I knew you would catch feelings for me. I'm that good,"

"Oh, would you hush. Who said I have feelings for you?" I said softly.

Losing his smile, "Alright, alright fine. I'm just good enough." He said warmly.

"Nah you're definitely that good."

"Does that mean you do have feelings for me?" He said as he perked up, eyes filled with joy.

I couldn't help but look the other way as I was about to let the words I feared to let slip out my mouth. He took his fingers and gently moved my face so we were looking deeply into each other eyes. "I do have feelings for you but I'm not sure if I want to do anything about them" I looked away from his eyes and down to the ground. "I'm just so scared but I did think about if we actually dated and somehow made it work."