Traveling the Unknown

Life as you Guys Know it.

Some say life is blissful, that life is full of adventure and excitement but me? I believe life is like a slap in the face back into reality. One person once told me that, "Some things must fall apart so that better things can fall back together." But what for? All I have ever known to go through is misery. When does the better part come along? Or is it all just lies that life keeps feeding us just to keep watching us hang on by a tiny piece of thread, contemplating on what to do next right before we fall.

Among us, there are people who struggle with issues each and everyday. We see them and draw our own conclusions. You think that they are always happy but in fact, you are terribly mistaken. The girl with a smile on her face is emotionally and physically abused. That boy that always makes others laugh is homeless and eating out of a dumpster, just to survive another day. The girl you think has everything figured out, has just lost the one person that was closest to her and has tried taking her life three times now.

Where does this all lead? It leads to the girl who had lost everything and is trapped in a mile long hole and can't escape. She is despertly just waiting for that one person to find a rope or ladder to help her succeed her goals. She going through a rough time right now and she doesn't know what to do with the pain she's feeling anymore. She feels lost. It's like traveling the unknown. She's unaware of what she'll say or do next. Sometimes, she worries herself and it scares her, likes she's becoming very unpredictable at times, which by the way is very terrifying. Not knowing your own self, it's like meeting a whole new person, starting from the very beginning with a simple hello. She wishes she could have a fresh start, a clean slate but she has come to realize that, that could never happen. She's too far gone by now. No good is to become of her. She's slowly melting away from the world and no one seems to notice.

She smiles and shows joy around others but that's just a lie, a cover up. She's hurting in the inside, getting tore down piece by piece. What does she do? This is what she's constantly asking herself. She wishes that she had a knight and shining armor but that's only in fairy tales. She has come to know the truth really well. In reality, no one really cares, not even herself anymore.

She looks around at all the laughter and the giggles and thinks back to, "that use to be me." Will she ever go back? Go back to the way she was before? Probably not. So she sinks further and further down because she's forgotten how to swim. She sinks faster because of all the pain, the grief, and all the emptiness that's constantly weighting her down. So faster, faster she goes, and hopes someone will pull her up to safety but it won't ever happen. So she holds her breath for as long as she possibly can but soon she will give up. She lets go, sucking in all the water, letting it fill her lungs with not the least bit of regret. She started to think for one split second that she had made a mistake but it's already too late and all she can do is wish. Wish she had one last chance, a redo but remember those are just deceptions of the world and this is just life, which by the way, she just took from herself. How? How did she get this way? What lead her to such distraught? Hi, I'm Skylar Cheyanne and this is the story of my life..