I sat in my office arms wrapped around my bent knees that touched my forehead. My tears fell down my cheaks slowly. They were warm and salty. Adam walked past my office and saw me sitting there. He knocked on the door. He knocked on the door. "go away," I sobbed. He opened the door anyway. He sat next to me.
"Aly... You wanna go home?" He asked me. I shook my head, no, "will you tell me what's wrong?"
"Its my mom," I sighed, "she wants me to visit her this Wednesday you remember her right? What I told you in collage, all my anxiety attacks." He nodded, "she says she's changed... It's not easy for me to believe. Adam I haven't seen her in years and when ever I have she's been doing bad things."
"Well I'd say go but I'll go with you if you want," he said rubbing my back.
"I think I'll be fine, " I said raising my red face, "I'll call you if I need you thanks Adam." He nodded and stood up he helped me up. He walked to the door.
"Aly you know you can talk to me," he said walking out. I got up and wipped my tears away.
"These people hate you..." A voice came from behind me. I turned around quickly. There wasn't anybody there. I shook my head, I walked to the kitchen, I poured myself a glass of water, "they could care less if you were here." I turned again... Nothing. I walked to the couch. I sat down, "they don't want you here you're a burden." I look to my right... Nothing. I stood up. I walked twords the front door, "they aren't your friends." I opened the door. I walked out side, "why are you running from me?" I turned around. Nothing. I opened the door. I walked out side, "why are you running from me? We are the same person." I got in my car and drove to the park. I took a walk on the trail. I could hardly see anything. Everything seemed to have go dark and my eyes were filled with tears. I sat at the big oak that grew over the pond. My breathing steadied. I sighed and looked at my phone.
"Aly where are you?" A text from max. I ignored it and threw my phone in the water. I looked to my left a small girl besides me. She wore a black dress black shoes and a Vail over her eyes. She was sobbing and in-between sobbs whispered, 'its my fault.' I stopped crying. I put my hand on her shoulder.
"It's not your fault is wasn't your fault you could never have know that deer would jump out like that." I didn't say that or at least I didn't mean to they seems to spill out of my mouth like water. She looked at me. She touched my cheeks with both hands and looked into my eyes.
"She follows you too?" The girl asked.
"Who?" I asked.
"Anxiety, I can see her in your eyes," she said, "she tells me things things I wish she wouldn't because I believe her." She showed me her arms. They had cuts and scars. I sighed.
"I listen to her too," I said, "but it's hard not to listen to her when she's constantly yelling in your ear." The girl nodded, "what's your name?"
"Carmen," the girl said, "what's your name?"
"I'm Aletta," I said. She smiled.
"Aletta?" She smiled, "you have a really pretty name."
"Thank you," I siad.
"Oh that's my mom I've gotta go," she said standing up, "I wish I hadn't listened to anxiety, I'll see you later Aletta either tomorrow or 50 years from now bye!" She siad walking off but she seemed to fade away into the forest. Then field went black. I slowly opened my eyes. The sun was setting. I stood up. I went to my pocket for my ph-, 'foxglove, that wasn't part of the dream huh?'
I got to the apartment. It's was around 10:30 when I pulled in the parking lot. I walked up the stairs and pulled out my keys. I opened the door I slowly closed it behind me. I walked out into the house and stood face to face with a ticked off ginger, "and where the hemlock were you? You had everyone worried!" I kicked my shoes off ignoring him, "Aly! Would you talk to me!" Tears formed in my eyes and I grabbed his waist pulling him into a hug. I felt saver in his arms. I sobbed he sighed defeated, he rubbed my back, "I'm sorry for yelling I was worried about you, you scared me... I thought I lost you..." he started crying. I flinched. I stopped crying.
"Max I'm sorry for scaring you like that I know how it feels... to think you've lost someone to anxiety, I said through his sweater and mostly sobs.
"Let's go to bed," he said letting go of me.
"Nah let's cuddle and play smash," I smiled up at him, "I don't wanna go to bed on a bad note." He smiled wipping tears from his eyes. We got out the controlers and put the game in. He grabbed a blanket and I got two mugs of hot chocolate. We sat down. We played nudging each other hoping to mess one another up. Laughing and joking, tickling at Rosalina jokes. Kissing each other with chocolate breath and mustaches. I had to go to the bathroom. I got up and walking back grabbed the home phone I called my mom, "I'm not going."
"What?" She asked.
"I'm not going whether you changed or not you've caused enough trouble for me," I said sternly.
"Pleas-," she started.
"Nope," I siad, "you can prove my sisters you have changed and I'll ask for a 100 word essay. Good bye mom." I hung up. I walked back out placeing the phone down. I got Bakc on the couch. "One more round Elsa?" I asked.
"Hey!" He winned, "yeah your on Tails!" He laughed. We played like til 12:45, we stopped playing I took a last sip from my hot chocolate. I cuddled up next to him. He put his arm around me. I smiledi though back to my what really happened in a few weeks. Which was crazy, got a new job, made new friends, got a YouTube channel, got put in a ship, fought with a friend, ate a gross pudding smoothie, a spicy one, met an old friend,g ot a boyfriend, had big anxiety attacks, and played smash til 1:00. I smiled up and a half asleep max, "Max."
"Yeah?" He said sleepily.
"Can you promise me something?" I asked.
"Yeah what is it?" He asked.
"No matter what happens to me... us," I said, "please I beg you... don't let me go." He nodded
"I can definitely promise," he smiled, "as long as you promised not o let go of me."
"Promise," I smiled and held out my pinky finger. He grabbed it with his, and we fell asleep.
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A...Nd that ends our story! 😭😭😭 Don't worry I'll have another story posted soon. I promise it's already being worked on I have like 7 parts to it already. Did you like this story tell meh what what you did and didn't in the comments so I can make my next stories even better then this one. So 1 out of 10 ginger ales for this story? I hope you enjoyed my story! If you want you can leave story suggestions in the comments section. Thanks for reading my story! Love you bye, and I hope to see you later.
