The death of you

part 1

cass i have a suprise for you! Austin smiles when I pull out of our hug 

"You do now?" I smirk.

 He reaches for his back pocket and holds up two concert tickets.

"It's for Ed Sheeran's concert- I notice how much you like the bloke's music," Austin seems pleased with himself.

 I feel my smile freeze and try to find my voice again.

"It's one of those little gold ticket gigs so you'll be able to really hear and see him- isn't this amazing?" He doesn't notice my state.
"It's. .. It's wonderful! Thank you!"
I reach up and kiss him.

 Austin slides his fingers into mine and we make our way down the road.

"I thought you'd be slightly more excited to tell you the truth..." He mumbles.

"I am! I'm so excited- I'm just thinking about all of the things I need to get done so I'll be able to go," I beam up at him.

 However, deep inside I want to die!

What am I going to do about this concert?

 How do I tell Austin I don't want to go to it? I don't want to see Ed... or any of HIS friends.. I avoided them for so long staying in touch only with Perrie.

How can I face them? And with Austin? How do I explain that? To them.. And to him...

"You're awfully quiet.." He states breaking me from my thoughts.

I snuggle up to him as we pace to my dorms building.

"No.. it's just that I'm really tired and as I said I have loads of work to do," I sigh.

"Well make sure you get everything done before Friday night," he plants a kiss on my temple.

"Are we still going out tonight?" I turn to face him as we reach the door.

"Most definitely! How does seven sound?"

"Splendid," I smile. I turn then and head into the building.

"Cass?" Julie calls from the shower.

"Yep it's me," I reply, letting my bag drop on my bed. 

I take off my coat and lay back. I decide to give Perrie a ring letting her know about the tickets and get her opinion on what I should do.

"Haya Cassie, how are you?" She answers in her cheerful manner.
"I'm well.. And yourself?"
"Food shopping.. we are out of milk and Zayn couldn't pick anything up so.."

"He's working hard lately ha?"

"Sure is.. How's Austin?"

"Err.. good.. He got us tickets to Ed's gig Friday.." I finally say.

"Oh.. you still haven't told him?"

"How do you tell someone about such a thing?? He already knows about Nan and my parents.. How can I tell him about all the rest.. The real reason I was in the US for the past year?"

"You know we're all going to be there right? I mean Louis and El and Niall.."

"I know.. What should I do?"

"Well it's up to you love.. Whatever you feel comfortable with," she sighs.

"I'll think about it," I tell her.

"I bumped into Liam the other day he said you guys are getting together today."

"Yes, out to eat maybe catch a movie," I smile.