Slowly Fading

Chapter 2

I walked in through the doors and immediately regretted it.

There he was, kissing her.

On the ride here thoughts were running across my mind like mice looking for cheese.

What if he notices me today? He's not gonna notice me now.
What if he drops down to his knees and begs for me? Nope. He's kissing her.
I wish she never moved here. Well she's here now. And with your guy.
I wish he was mine. Never gonna happen in your life.

And they just kept coming and coming. Then I got the bright idea to walk up to him.

He was pushing her against a wall and shoving his tongue down his throat.

Remember, you want him happy. But I want that bitch gone.
She is the one making him happy. I wish I could make him happy.
You have nothing he wants. Yes, I am well aware.

And soon I start to approach him,
"Hey Danny"

He doesn't even look up. So me being the embarrassed idiot I am, I kept walking.

And I kept walking with thoughts continuing to scatter across my mind.

Did I really just do that? Yes. Yes you did.
Why did I do that? Because you love him.
Do I look like a complete idiot right now?  No, but you're about to.
What do you m-

Then all of a sudden I bumped into someone then falling to the floor. I immediately say "sorry" as starting to get up and then a hand came towards me to help me up. I grabbed the hand and realized that it was a guys hand. And the wrist had a cluster of veins popping out of its skin. And connected to that wrist was a very muscular arm that lead to a tall, muscular guy.

"No no no it was my fault, I wasn't paying attention. I was just walking with my head down."

I look straight into his eyes as I was getting up. They were a gray kinda blue color. His jaw bone was very defined. As were his cheek bones. His hair was shaggy and blonde. But not like a bright blonde, more of like a golden color. Then his lips started moving again as my jaw started to drop from the hotness of him.

"Oh hi, I'm Benjamin Wringler"
He stuck his hand out for me to shake it when I finally regained balance.
"Katerina Lambort"
"Well nice to meet you Katerina" and he puts an emphasis on the a in my name, and I let go of his hand.
"You can call me Kate if you want" as I start walking to science. My 1st period class. Benjamin follows me.
"I would prefer to call a beautiful girl by her full name, because it it beautiful if you don't mind." This made me blush, and I tried to hide it.

I did not know why this boy was calling me beautiful. I mean I have an average face. High cheeks, thin lips, wide eyes, regular girl eyebrows, brown eyes, and long brown hair. Not even to mention my glasses.

"Well, Benjamin I wi-" he cut me off
"You can call me Ben"
"Well I'm gonna call you Benjamin if you don't mind, mainly because it's hot," I pause for a brief moment, "and so are you" I say as I spin on my heels and walk into my science class.

For a reason I am not quite sure of, Benjamin follows me.

"Why did you follow me?" I ask him as he sits down next to me.
"I've been in this class with you since the 1st day of school, you just always have your nose in a book"
"Well I'm sorry if I like living in non-realistic worlds where I can control everything" I defended
"I wasn't trying to make fun of you, I think it's cute. Just like you"

And then the bell rang. Except the teacher wasn't in the room. Benjamin leaned towards me and kissed me then he walked to his seat.

Why did he kiss me? He likes you.
Was that flirting? Well he did kiss you didn't he?
Why haven't I seen him before? Do you not listen to anything that boy says?
I don't understand. How was that flirting. I literally just fell in front of him and he help me up. You read adventure books not drama don't you?
But I love Danny. And Paul loves you, what's the difference?
Danny has a girlfriend. Why has that stopped you all these years?
Does Ben have a girlfriend? I thought it was Benjamin.

Thoughts kept running through my head just as they were since I woke up. I think that I'm going to change things this week. It's time. Senior year, if you're single, chances are you stay single. And I'm going to be with Danny.

Then, as if on cue the bell rings. And I start heading towards social studies. And Danny tries to approach me.

"Hey, sorry for ignoring you earlier, I was kind of in the middle of something"
I stay silent.
"You know you can accept my apology?"
I still stay silent.
"I don't know what's been up with you lately you've seemed very jealous of janette"
That's her name. Janette. It's hideous. I stop in my steps.
"Why are you with her?" I ask
"What?"
I repeat myself, "Why are you with her?"