Poems

Why am I like this?

They say the best moments are in new beginnings

Then why do I see painful things that hold no meaning

Sometimes I hoped that every moment I was dreaming

But I can't stop having a train of thought with the things I'm seeing

I used to be foolish and dumb, trying to make myself cry

Not realizing the bad effects every time I try

I'm currently in the present, wishing the past could die

Hoping that someday these emotions would fly

I now try my best to make everyone smile

Help fix their problems, my focus is on them for awhile

But how could I fix the problem, if the problem is me

I just wished I could live in a wonderful fantasy

I express my thoughts in an artistic way

While hoping the emotions pass anyway

I wanted to stop being abstract and creative

So now I'm straightforward and intuitive

I ask of thee, please hear my plea!

Because I'm not aiming for victory

I think... I might be going crazy

But it does not matter, at least I'm happy

I find it weird to discover that there are several people in me

With each name and personality, I find this really silly

They all control my life, even my behavior to my family

Please be careful because they are manipulative and scary

I decided to sit back and watch for them take control

Because I figured out that they're nice people, so I let the coin roll

And each bad situation diffused by them, I wonder how they did it?

But because of that they gave me limitations, I guess I'll sit

For now, everyone, this is currently my life story

To all people I have hurt, I wish I could say sorry

But the damage I dealt is as deep as a quarry

Don't worry, someone will take my place for me

I guess I'm not afraid to publish this anymore

Since in my story, nobody knows me

I try my best to accept my fate

If you want something happy, sorry it is late