How to Love

Chapter 5

There comes a time in loneliness, when someone hears and sees how you feel, but it makes you feel all the more alone. Well I've found that time. I've discovered this and more in the past two days. I haven't seen or talked to anyone in the past two days. I sigh and sit up. I see a small amount of food on the table and that's when I can't help but go over and eat the small salad looking meal. I refused to eat the food they brought me the past two days, but I drank the water they brought. I may have been upset, but I'm smart enough not to get dehydrated. 

I set the bowl back on the table. I hear the door open, but I don't look up to see who's there, I already knew. In fact I turned and stared out the window. "You can't stay locked up in here foreven you know," I hear his robotic voice say. I shake my head a little. "I could if I really wanted to. I once stayed in my room for over a month during the summer. My friends snuck me in food. That was a relaxing month..." I trail off realizing I said too much. "Too much time has been wasted already, you need to be trained," I felt him trying to stay calm. I've heard little bits and pieces about his temper from passing stormtroopers. I sigh knowing if I didn't give in someone would get hurt.

"Now, shall we train," he asks smugly. I give a small nod. He walks of the room and I follow. I have a weird feeling about this Kylo Ren guy and for that matter this entire ship! Kylo stops and opens a door. Its the same room as before, but I take more notice of what fills the room.Inside is a large room with work out equipment, large mats, practice dummies, and that's just the tip of the ice berg.  Kylo signals for me to go in. I do as he says. He starts explaining the force and how it works, which takes a while. It didn't help the he had to stop and give orders once in a while. After he finally  finished he told me to try and lift one of the practice dummies. I nod but was very unsure of myself, I mean anyone in my situation would have been. I reach out and put all my focus into lifting the dummy. That;s the something I never could have imagined happened, I felt it, I felt the force. Right then I focused on the force around the dummy, but I felt the force around everything. I felt it around Kylo, the dummy, everything, the emotions the auras of people. I snap my self out of the spell and see the dummy levitating off the ground.

I hear Kylo speak as I continue focusing on the dummy. "Good, now bring it closer." I watch as I move it closer. I smile to myself and set it down a few feet in front of me. I let everything that I just felt soak in. Maybe he was right, maybe I was more than I thought I was. Maybe there is more to me than I know there to be... Little did I know this was already discussed...

~1 day earlier~

Kylo's P.O.V.

I kneel in the presence of my master. "My apprentice, we have a problem to face," he starts, "The girl is too evenly balanced between the light and the dark."

"She's too strong to go towards the light. She would find herself weak and she doesn't like that." Snoke sighs,"Then maybe she should train." He said clearly annoyed. "She will Master." There's a moment of silence. "Make her think the dark is where she's meant to be no matter what it takes...," Is the last thing Snoke says before his hologram Fades.

~CURRENT TIME~

Normal P.O.V.

I look over at my master. "It's a start. I'll see you at your training session in the morning.I nod and he leaves.I sigh and go back to my room, but on the way there I get lost.  I end up walking the halls for an entire hour before I find my room. When I eventually do get there I go and  lay down and fall asleep but make no mistake. There was no dreaming.