SURVIVE

Almost an Murderer

• • • Beck's RV:
Beck's POV:

„Beckyy?", I heard Jade whispering.

„Jadey?"

„You know how I-", she began to yell but stopped suddenly.

„Sorry..! How are you feeling?"

Jade's POV:

I totally forgot, that Beck's hurt...
And I don't wanna hurt his feeling with yelling at him!
What a Girlfriend am I ?!

„I'm fine..", did he answer.

But as I heard these words again, I began to remember..:

Flashback:

„How are you feeling ?!", asked Sikowitz or Lane, Beck.

I don't really remember who asked it, I was too concerned at Beck.

„I'm...OW!!!", did he scream.

• • •

„How are you feeling?!", asked the nurse Beck as we arrived in the hospital.

„I....'m...-". he whispered and then let go of my hand.

He lost his awareness !

Flashback ends...

He was going to say "Fine" !
"I'm fine"..
And he said that so often in these past days...

„You already said that..!"

„What do you mean ?", I walked out of Beck's bed and was now in front of it. Beck sat up, but as he did that, he touched his stomach and makes a hurt face.

„When you get hurt...And somebody asks you, how you're feeling...You say "I'm.."...What could mean "I'm fine"...And you're not fine !", did I say with tears in my eyes.

„Okay...you're right...I wasn't fine at all...", he said and looked in my eyes.

„But I didn't want you to worry about me..!"

„What ?! Er..Why ?!"

„Because then you would get sad and I can't see you sad! It makes me sad too.", I smiled a little at his words and sat next to Beck on his bed now.

„Hey! What's the matter ?", he asked worried.

„Now I'm the confused from us two."

„I mean...Why are you crying?", he said and whipped a single tear away.

„I didn't realise, I was.."

„Baby...Why were you crying ?", as he said that he touched my face so I looked at him and can't really avoid his eyes.

„Maybe...because you're hurt and I can't do a thing about it...-"

„What ?!", he interrupted.

„You've already did enough! Or else saying, you did too much !! I mean, you're the best boyfriend a living thing like me could wish and dream about! You're so caring and sweet AND so many beautiful things either! But I think you don't wanna sit here for the next two days and listen to me how I say all your wonderful characteristics, or ?!", I laughed a little and hug and kiss Beck.