The Friendship Eclipse.

love crescent

I can't get this one person of my mind. It's been so long and still I can't get rid of him. I'll be fine then suddenly something will bring the memories back and I'll find myself breaking all over again.

Everyone around me will say get over him, it's over, he's moved on so should you. Maybe I should move on but there's always something that drags me back.

I hate it, I hate it all.

As well as not been able to get over him, vigilem is getting really worked up because arlea and efah are back friends. She keeps worrying that we're going to lose arlea. Thinking about it, I feel we might. Arlea and efah are hanging out together and it's really getting to vigilem.

To be honest I don't know what to do. I don't want to lose arlea but I don't want vigilem to get worked up. It all just gets to much for me. I'll find myself hiding because I don't want to deal with any of it. Some people would say I'm the one who their going to lose but it really is getting to much.

But without him I have no body to talk to about this. I can't talk to arlea because I don't want to hurt her. On the other hand I can't talk to vigilem because I don't want to lose her or arlea.

So many times I wish that non of this had happened, I wish that I didn't have to go through this, I wish that the others didn't have to go through this. But I guess everyone has to go through stuff like this at some point.

If I could have one thing in this world, I'd have him back and I wouldn't let him slip through my fingers again. He was more than just a boy, he was my best friend, he was my happiness, my support. But I guess I was stupid and I let him go.

Without him all I can do is sit and get myself upset over this stuff because I can't talk to anyone about this stuff. It all bottles uo inside.

But I have my ways of getting through it.

Putting my headphones on turning them up on full volume and shutting the world away.

Like everything I build up my walls to hide everything away. But while keeping me safe I'm putting more stress on others.

Never forget the people you have close the people you depend on. Because one day you might lose them and then the walls you built will come crumbling down around you.