Trying To Love Again (A Diggy Simmons And Yn Fanfic)

Pissed Heartbroken & Devastated

Yn POV

I was heart broken. I went straight home after I came back from the clinic. I would never EVER want to kill my unborn child. In fact, if the circumstances were different I would have kept it. But I'm too young and I already have too much on my mind.

As I walked in the house, I saw my mom, snorting cocaine. I shook my head and sighed. I can't believe she's doing this. As I walked past, she looked up at me.

"Where the hell have you been?" she asked.

"Out" I replied not wanting her to add on to my stress.

She grabbed me by my hair and swung me into the wall. The impact of my head and the wall was so strong that my head left a huge hole in the wall. I held my head in pain. She looked satisfied.

"I can't believe I ever gave birth to yo worthless ass!" she said. "You ain't nothin but a mistake! I should have made yo daddy pull out!"

"Trust me, I never asked to be in this world with a sorry ass excuse for parents. Both deadbeats!" I said in rage. I didn't know my dad, but just that simple fact told me he was a deadbeat.

Her eyes got bigger. She stormed over to me and started punching me in my face. Each blow was harder and harder. When she was done, I had a bloody nose and a swollen eye.

When she was finally done, I got up off of the ground, I ran upstairs and cleaned up my face. I looked at my reflection and cried.

"Bullshit!" I yelled. "Life is nothing but bullshit!"

I know what I have to do. I went to my car and sped off to a Lake Michigan, which wasn't a very long drive from my house. Living in Chicago, I hear that plenty of people have drowned in Lake Michigan. I'll just do the same. The only difference between me and the other people is they drowned accidentally. I'm gonna drown on purpose. I walked up to the huge lake, tears streaming from my eyes.

"Okay world" I screamed out loud to the skies & to the heavens, "This is it! I'm not going to be a bother or a 'mistake' to anyone else ever again. I'm not going to be hurt or abused ever again! I'm DONE! I'm not going to be missed because no one loves me anyways. Never again will I have to hurt. So goodbye to everyone! Here goes nothing."

Just as I was about to jump, I heard a voice call after me.

"Yn, wait! What the hell are you doing?" The voice sounded so familiar. I turned to see Diggy. Had he been there the whole time?

"Diggy, what are you doing here?" I asked him.

Diggy's POV

Ever since I was a child I always went to Lake Michigan to think. When I was just sitting down, I saw Yn walk up. I was going to ignore her until I heard her yelling about ending her life. She said that she was unloved, but she is. I love her.

"I always come here to think" i said. "What are you doing here" I said, even though the answer was obvious.

"I'm here to end it all. Nobody cares Daniel" she said, sobbing her eyes out. Her face looks really flushed like she's been bawling her eyes out almost everyday. I noticed she had more bruises too.

"Yn, I care. I know I haven't been acting like it lately but, I love you. I really do. I've loved you ever since the first day that I met you. I've just been so mad because you never let me in or gave me the opportunity to say all of this. Plus it was too early & I was afraid you wouldn't feel the same way."

Yn looked shocked when I said all of this. "Diggy, I'm so sorry. I've just been in a horrible past relationship & I wasn't ready to trust anyone. & my mom..." She didn't finish her sentence. I hated seeing Yn like this, she was too beautiful to be depressed.

"Yn, trust me. Just let me in. Please."

She was kind of hesitant but after a few seconds she started to explain everything to me. I was so mad about what her mom had been doing to her. But I was even more pissed when I found out about what Jason had did to her. I was also pissed off at myself for not being there for her when she needed it the most.

She put her face in her hands & started crying. I gently lifted her chin with my finger and kissed her passionately. I couldn't have asked for anything better than to be with her.

"Yn, I love you with all of my heart. I know we just met but, it feels like I've known you forever. I want to always be there for you. Yn, will you go out with me?"

"Of course Diggy." This is the first time I've seen her smile.

"So what problems are you having?" Yn asked me. Was she psychic or something?

"Huh?" I asked wanting her to explain further.

"The day we had our argument, you yelled 'Yn, you're not the only one with problems!'"

I had thought about our discussion after school was over with the day of our argument.

*Flashback*

I walked out of the building and started going toward my car. As I was walking I saw Yn, leaning on the car. Waiting for me I guess.

"Umm, Im kinda in a hurry and you're on my car." I said, sounding like a complete dick.

"Dig, please dont act like this" Yn said.

"Act like what? Someone who just wanted to get to know you? Someone who just wanted to help?" I said, semi-yelling.

She looked toward the ground, I could tell my words had hurt her a little. But hey, you know what they say: the truth hurts.

"Dig, you have no idea what I've been through" she said a little bit over a whisper.

"Yn, you're not the only one with problems!" I yelled, thinking about the problems I was having at home. "Now, can you move?" I asked, irritation noticeable in my voice.

She moved out of the way, her head hanging low.

I hopped in, started the car, and pulled off.

*End Of Flashback*

Wow, she actually remembered that?

"So, what are the problems that you're having?" Yn asked, breaking me from my thoughts. I forgot she was still waiting for an answer.

"Nothing" I lied.

She sighed. She got up and started walking away.

"Where are you going?" I asked.

"Away" she had said.

"So you're really upset about this? Are you serious?" I asked. She just became my girlfriend and she's already being extra. Is she on her period or some shit?

"Daniel, I just poured everything out to you. I trusted you enough to tell you that. You & Minnie are the only people I told. Doesn't that tell you something Daniel?"

I paused for a second, letting her works sink in. "Yn I do trust you" I said, not looking her in her beautiful eyes.

"Then tell me!" she said.

I sighed. "Just sit down" I told her.

She sat down, still waiting for her answer.

Yn POV

Is he serious? I just told him everything and he's acting like he doesn't trust me enough to let me into his personal life. I swiped my long, curly hair out of my face and waited for an answer.

He didn't say anything.

I rolled my eyes. "Daniel! Didn't you just ask me to let you in? To trust you? & you can't even do the same for me?!" I was royally pissed at this time.

He sighed. He then explained everything that had been happening lately. I was so heartbroken by his personal life, I had forgotten how pissed I was.

"Dan, Im so sorry for snapping off on you. I had no idea" I said.

He didn't say anything. He just got up and started walking away. He turned around and said "I have to go." He walked away, leaving me there sitting at the edge of Lake Michigan.