Trying To Love Again (A Diggy Simmons And Yn Fanfic)

The New Boy

Yn POV *The Next Day*

I cried myself to sleep once again last night. I was going to skip again but then I remembered that I couldn't miss too many days for college. I went to the bathroom, got ready, and tried to hide my bruises with make up.. AGAIN. I had called Minnie the night before, letting her know about the break up.

I drove myself to school, fighting the urge to turn back around.

"Im only doing this for my own good" I thought aloud.

*At School*

I tried to scurry to my locker and try to make myself as unnoticeable as I possibly could. I then heard a very familiar voice that I could recognize from anywhere. It's Minnie, my BFF.

"Hey giiiirl" she said in a very excited tone.

I gave her fake smile and turned toward her. "Hey, wassup Min?" I asked trying to sound as perky as possible.

Isn't it funny how you're supposed to confide in your best friend about everything going on in your life, & Minnie doesn't know anything about my life? Every time she saw the bruises on my face and body, I would just make up some lame excuse. Dont get me wrong, Im gonna tell her, just not right now...

"There's this new kid um, what the fuck is his name?" She asked aloud, saying random names aloud. "Danny, Doggy, Diddy, oh wait, Daniel, but everyone calls him Diggy." She said all of this in so much excitement but I have no idea why. "He's super cute but seems really shy."

I gave her a 'Get To The Point, Min' look before turning around & completely giving up on the subject.

She looked kind of upset and disappointed that I had shut her down like that. "What's wrong with you?" She asked, desperate to know what was bothering me. "You haven't been the same lately & all Im trying to do is be a good BFF & you're shutting me down."

"It hasn't even been a full three days yet and you're already trying to hook me up! Just leave me alone! Im not ready! " I screamed, remembering those were the same words I had screamed at Jason. I winced at the thought.

Minnie looked so hurt, even I wanted to cry. She turned around and walked away, tears streaming from her eyes. I feel so horrible. I started to chase after her to apologize when the first bell rang.

"Ugghhh" I said in frustration.

I began running in the opposite direction when I bumped into someone.

"Oh my God, Im so sorry" I said, picking the books up that had fallen out of our hands. I looked at him. He's definitely fine as hell.

"It's cool" he said giving me a slight smile.

"Im Yn" I said reaching my hand out to shake his.

"Daniel" he said while shaking my hand.

We gazed into each other's eyes for a few minutes until I realized I had to get to class.

"I have to go" I said.

"Umm, yeah me too" he said.

He followed me to class until I realized we had EVERY class together. Wow.

*After School*

Daniel turned out to be pretty sweet. Im actually going to meet him at the park now. I probably would have went straight home, but since my mom is probably higher than a balloon right now, why not go chill before going to the hell hole I call a home?

Once I got there, I saw Daniel on a park bench, waiting for me.

"Hey" I had said to him.

He looked up and smiled. "Oh wassup Yn?"

I sat down next to him.

"Hey what's your number?" He had asked.

I frowned. We just met today and he's trying to flirt already! "Why do you want it?" I asked with a lot if attitude, rolling my eyes as I said it. "Ughhhh all guys are the same. All they want to do is get in your panties as soon as they meet you! Dont try to play me Daniel!" I yelled.

He looked like a mixture of upset & hurt. "Actually, I wanted your number because I thought we were becoming friends. Plus, I heard your argument with your friend as well & thought you may have needed someone to talk to." He said.

"Oh, so now you feel bad for me?" I sad, annoyed by my bitchiness.

I guess I really struck a nerve because as soon as I said that, he got up and started gathering his things to leave. "All Im trying to do is be nice Yn! But if you don't want to talk to me or get to know me that's fine!" He said. I could hear how hurt he was. He started to walk off.

"Daniel" I began to say," Wait." He stopped in his tracks and turned around to face me. "Im really sorry for acting like a bitch. Im just...going through a lot right now. Im truly sorry" i said.

He sat back down next to me. We exchanged numbers and began talking for another two hours. We were both laughing and having a great time. I had almost forgot about all my problems until he asked that question.

"Ummm, Im not trying to be nosy, but can you please tell me you have those bruises?" He said looking at my bruises that the make up failed to completely cover, and then into my eyes, genuinely concerned.

I rolled my eyes. "None of your GOTDAMN BUSINESS." I screamed, loud enough for people 10 blocks away to hear me. "If it doesn't concern you, DONT FUCKIN ASK!" I screamed even louder.

He looked stunned. "Look, Im just worried about you. I just wanna make sure you're-"

I cut him off with a quickness. "LOOK! I DONT NEED PITY FROM MINNIE, OR YOU, OR ANYONE ELSE! SO JUST STAY OUT OF MY FUCKIN BUSINESS & LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" I said, getting into his face and pushing him a little bit.

He looked at me, then packed his things up to go once again. The only difference was, I didn't stop him this time. I then saw him load his car, turn the ignition, and drive off, leaving me where I stood when I yelled at him.

Before completely leaving I decided to call Minnie to apologize to her.

*Phone Conversation*

"Hello" Minnie's voice filled my ears. I could tell she was still saddened by the way our conversation went in the hallway earlier.

I then quickly filled her in about everything going on in my life, along with the apology, completely forgetting to say 'Hello' back.

"This explains everything! Im so sorry Yn. Are you ok?"

The pity show starts once again.

"Im fine. But I have to go" I said hanging quickly to avoid anymore pity.

I went home right after that. As I pulled into the driveway, I noticed another car in my spot.

I quickly parked, got out, pulled out my keys, and opened the door.

As I walked in, I saw a random man and my mother butt ass naked in the living room, smoking weed with empty drug bottles around them.

"Mom! What the fuck are you doing?! And who the fuck is this?" I asked. My thoughts were slipping from my lips without me even noticing.

She looked at me as if I had lost my mind. She got up, wrapped a towel around herself, grabbed me by my hair, and pushed me against the walls. We were so close, I could feel her breathing on me. "Watch who you're fuckin talkin to! You must have forgotten who I am and what I can do to you!" She said before swinging me by my hair to the ground.

I got up, glaring at both of them. I ran upstairs and laid on my bed. I felt like things were never gonna look up in my life. Im so sick of life. Im not sure how much more I can take.

I looked under my pillow and grabbed the photo of me and my mother. I remember when we used to be happy like this. We weren't perfect and still had our ups and downs, but we were never like this. I tried to remember all of the good times we had before drifting off into a deep sleep.