10:27 am.
I stare at my phone and see I woke up at 10:27 am.
I went to sleep around 3:15 am.
Right before the whole mess happened. Why do I have to screw everything up!! Why!! I look around and see everyone is asleep. Good thing. I kinda want to be alone and think. I get up and go to the stairs. I need to tell Bella. Before I make anymore moves, decisions, whatever... She needs to know.
I get up to get some coffee since I hardly got sleep. I try to make the least amount of noise going to the kitchen. I put the coffee in and was just waiting for it to be ready when I hear "Amy?". It was Bella. She looked really sleepy. I just turned to look at her but didn't say anything.
"why are your eyes so red?" she asked. I just stared at her. "hmm... Ok you either did not get enough or... You've been crying" I guess it was pretty noticeable. "Amy what the hell happened last night?" my coffee was ready so I began to drink it and sat on the table. She sat down on the chair next to me.
I explained everything to her with details. I didn't keep anything from her because I needed her advise. I even told her about Louis giving me advise. She looked at me. "awh Amy" she said pulling me Into a hug. I began to cry. I don't really like to cry but bella is one of the few people I trust.
We heard someone stir around in their sleep. "it's 11:04 they might wake up anytime." I didn't want anyone else see me cry. "upstairs" I looked at her. "yup" she said "let's go." "of course we have to sneak" I said. Both of us smirked at each other.
When we were younger (like middle school) we used to sleepover each others houses all the time. On our second sleepover, around 2 we got hungry and since my parents were asleep we sneaked downstairs and brought up snacks and drinks. Ever since then, every sleepover we had ended up in us going downstairs to get food. We got pretty good at walking quite. This moment right now both reminded us of that moment.
We tiptoed upstairs. I was hoping that Perrie left me a sign saying that she read the note. Of course she had to read it. It was next to her phone. I was still kinda nervous. I can't believe I did that.
We went into the room. "the note isn't on the table" Bella said. "so that means she had to have read it, right?" I Said kinda worried. "yea, unless she was half asleep reaching for her phone and it fell on the floor" I looked under the bed and it wasn't there. "nope" I said. "then I guess she did read it" Bella said with an optimistic tone.
I looked down from the nightstand. Next to it was the small trash can. There was only one thing in there. Could it be? I picked up the bits of paper in there. It was the note I wrote to Perrie! She ripped it up and threw it away! She hates me!!
I began to tear up a little. I made a huge mistake. Bella came over to where I was. She saw the teared up paper. "Amy I'm so sorry" she said while hugging me to comfort me. "why am I so stupid" I say crying. "amy you are not stupid" she said in a serious tone.
We stayed there for about a half hour. "Bella I can't face Harry and everyone else downstairs" "well we could make this our last day and go home after this..." "no no that wouldn't be fair to you. You and Niall have been so happy together and I can't ruin it" "Amy don't think--" "Bella that's the only way to think. I could just leave today and next weekend I could pick you up." "no. We will think of another way"
We stand in front of the window looking out into the back yard. I don't want to face anyone downstairs.
Just then we hear the door open downstairs. The girls are back from dropping Perrie off at the airport. Perrie probably told them everything and now they probably hate me. 'nice job Amy. Your such an idiot' I mentally scold myself.
Bella and I look outside really quick and notice that everyone is still asleep. It's already 11:45. These boys can sleep. Danielle and Eleanor decide to let them sleep. We noticed they begin to walk upstairs do we put sit on the bed like we were talking the whole time. I'm facing the door so I can't see them and I see Bella's eyes looking up so I turn around.
"can we talk" Eleanor said in a calm voice. I was a little scarred. What if they hate me too? I couldn't bare people hating me.
"ok before we say anything we want to hear your side of the story" said danielle. What? "yeah we were talking in the car and as much as Perrie is our friend You are too" I don't even know what to say. I thought they would yell at me or just plain out ignore me.
I told them everything from going to the room with Harry and talking to me to talking with Louis. When I finished Eleanor and Danielle were both starring at me. I was afraid of this. They are never gonna talk to me again. I should just pack my bags and leave while I still have the chance.
"say something" said Bella. "sorry" they said together. "it's just its really shocking" dani said. "Perrie made it seem like you did this on purpose" said Eleanor. "well at least you know the truth" I said with a sigh "but she is never going to forgive me"
We all took a big deep breath. We can hear the guys starting to wake up. "we don't blame you Amy" said dani. "what happened is still wrong so we are on Perrie side but it wasn't completely your fault so we re your side too" said Eleanor. "is that even allowed" said Bella. "I rather have people think I'm half right than not right at all" I said.
We all agreed and began to head downstairs. The guys have barely woken up. I hesitated for a second and began to walk again. Liam walked up to dani, Eleanor to Louis, and Niall to bella. They all Gave each other hugs and good mornings.
I looked at both Harry and Zayn. They were across the room from each other both starring back at me. I guess they were waiting for me to see who I would go to. The girls were looking at me and then could tell what I was going to do. I gave them a sympathetic smile before I ran back up stairs. Hopefully they got the message to not follow me cuz I wanted to talk to Harry and Zayn alone.
