Kisses For The Broken (19 Days Fanfiction)

Chapter 2

The sun began setting quickly as Jian Yi made his way to Zhan Zheng Xi's house. Xi was complaining about how his little sister would always beat him in his games, and for a moment, Jian Yi felt like he could see into that side of him. What his life was like at home, his relationship with his family, all of those things. Not once had they taken their eyes off each other. But a dark thought came across Jian Yi's mind, which infected itself into his train of thoughts.
What will his mother and little sister think?
Another lump found its way into his throat, the aura shifted drastically. "And I just-... hey, are you okay? You look nervous, and don't say 'nothing' this time, I wont pass up your feelings. Talk to me." Zheng Xi stopped and looked at Jian Yi, he could feel his chest tighten.
"Y-your family....I'm just worried about what your family will think of me now" He choked out, hoping that Xi would catch onto what he was talking about. The corners of Zheng Xi's mouth turned upward slightly, giving a caressing look, he touched Jian Yi's shoulders.
"Jian Yi, I've known you since we've been young kids. My family has known you since we've been that old as well. Sure, you're a bit weird and kind of obnoxious, but that's just who you are. They won't think of you any differently." That hit Jian Yi hard, he could feel his sinuses swell up. He brought his hands to his face, trying to hold back the tears.
"God... damn it Zheng Xi.."
He then felt something coil itself around his torso, Zheng Xi gripped him tightly. He brought his hands down from his face to see the boy hugging him, and he returned the embrace. Jian Yi gripped him tightly, shoving his face into his neck and shoulders, unable to hold back any harboring tears. The sat there for a minute or so, until Jian Yi dropped hi arms back down to his side and Xi release him.
"Im..sorry" Jian Yi said quietly, wiping any stray tears on his face and Zheng Xi's neck.
"Don't be, you don't have to be sorry for anything that you do to me."
Jian Yi chuckled, pushing his friend shoulder a bit, "S-Shut up, you're gonna make me start crying again idiot"
They both laughed slightly, continuing their way before the sun completely set.

"BIG BROTHER!" Zhan Zheng Xi' younger sibling came pounding down the hallway and hugged her brother, making him cringe up from being squeezed so hard. As she pulled away, she glanced at Jian Yi and her smile went away. She frowned at him, "You! Stay away from my big brother!" Little sister gripped Xi again, giving Jian Yi the death glare and sticking out her tongue.
"Would you let go of me please" Zheng Xi said calmly, Jian Yi couldn't help but giggle.
They began struggling with each other, until their mother poked her head out of the kitchen to hush them up.
"Oh hello Jian Yi! Welcome back!" She said smiling warmly, before poking her head back in. While little sister was distracted, Zheng Xi pulled the both quickly into his room.
"She's so difficult to get away from, anyways, I told you they wouldn't think differently." He said sitting on his bed, grabbing his handheld gaming device. Jian Yi laid on his bed, looking around his room. He had a ton of manhuas stacked pretty much everywhere, his room was quiet dark with only the light of the now set sun showing through the shades.
"I don't think video games are homework, XiXi" He said sitting up, wrapping his arms around him and looking over his shoulder.
"Just let me finish this level, then we will work on it" He replied, obviously caught up in playing his game. About 10 minutes went by, and Jian Yi was extremely bored.
"Hey, how long is this gonna take..?" He looked at what his level was, and he already passed 5.
"Really Xi? This is why you need my help with your homework" He grabbed the game and help it up in the air, keeping it from Zheng Xi who was insisting and reaching. He ended up pushing Jian Yi off the bed just to get it back, "Wow, that's a bit harsh don't you think? Pushing your best friend off of your bed.." He said, pulling himself back up onto the mattress. "I didn't push you off, you fell off" Zheng Xi said back, grinning a bit.
"You're an awful liar, Xi. Truly the worst" Jian Yi grinned back, messing up his hair.
"I'll kick your ass for messing with my hair"
"Bring it on"
Zheng Xi paused his game and turned around to grab Jian Yi's shirt. He was obviously messing around with him, so Jian Yi decided to play along. They began to wrestle each other, trying to pin the other down.
Jian Yi was pushed into the mattress being held down at his wrists, he struggled trying to over power him.
"Your still trying to win? Give up already, I've basically won" He quickly flipped Zheng Xi to where he was, pushing their hands against each other.
"Oh really? Maybe you should just give up now" He tried to flip Jian Yi back over, but was unable to.
Zheng Xi sighed and released his tense muscles,
"Fine, you win" Jian Yi threw his hands in the air in a victory, until he was pushed to his back again.
"Im still powerful, though" Jian Yi didn't struggle, just laid there and smiled. "Of course you are, Zheng Xi" As they breathed heavily from playing, Jian Yi's heart pounded in his chest, from the excitement and being this close to Zheng Xi. Jian Yi was overwhelmed with the desire to kiss him, it was almost like he needed it. He began to laugh a bit, and Zheng Xi joined him. They laughed for a while, until it's died down. They both sat there and just looked at each other, Jian Yi took in the beauty of this moment.
"Jian yi... could I try something?" Zheng Xi asked, which made Jian Yi curious. He hesitantly putting his forehead against Jian Yi's. It felt like his heart nearly fall out of his chest, it was like he turned into jelly. What was he going to do? Was it just something silly? What if Zheng Xi though of him as... Why was he over-thinking this? Jian Yi already know how Xi felt about him but... "w-wha..." he couldnt even speak, but he nodded anyways.
"Okay... just... tell me if you're uncomfortable, okay?" Xi softly grabbed Jian Yi's arms and wrapped them around his waist, their heads returned to each others. Zheng Xi bit his lip, looking a bit nervous. Jian Yi laid there, sort of in a daze. He was almost shocked, this didn't feel exactly right. The aura was weird. This wasn't Zheng Xi at all.
"I-I don't know if I should do this..." Xi whispered, sending chills down his back.
"It's okay.. I promise..." Jian Yi replied even quieter, ignoring his messy thoughts, their eyes met.
"Here goes... everything..." Xi said breathing out deeply, before lowering his head down to meet Jian Yi's lips. It was definitely the first time he had ever given a kiss, it was sort of out of place and their faces squished together. But that didn't matter to Jian Yi, his body immediately reacted, causing his blood to rapidly flow. Zheng Xi pulled their lips apart for a second, looking into his eyes, "is that okay?" Jian Yi gripped his shirt, breathing heavily at the sudden move, nodding again. Their lips met again, sending each other loving kisses. Jian Yi's toes curled, this felt wrong... but he enjoyed it so much. Maybe Zheng Xi did like him back? Or was it just because of the moment? Was he just being sympathetic? Xi began to travel down his jaw and onto his neck, kissing and licking his skin. This made Jian Yi jump a bit, he might of known what to expect, but it was all too sudden for him. "..are you.. okay?" The boy whispered into his neck, Jian Yi's hips were burning with heat, unable to control his excitement. He responded by nudging his nose on Zheng Xi's ear, tightening his grip even more. Xi continued to kiss his neck. Sooner or later, they began grinding softly on one another and finding each others hands in their shirts. "Hah...Jian Yi..." Zheng Xi whispered, pushing their hips together. Jian Yi felt his ear being kissed and gnawed on, his nails dragged down Xi's back. Zheng Xi moved to his neck again and began leaving small marks behind.
"Zheng...Xi.." Jian Yi said quietly, his voice sounding full of ecstacy.
"Yes?" He replied, shifting his hand through Jian Yi's hair and looking into his eyes.
"I don't know how much longer of this I can take... I don't want to make a mistake...or make you not enjoy this... I'm nervous.." He felt like he was out of control of his body, embarrassed about how it responded.
"Do you want to stop...? I'll do whatever you want me to, Jian Yi. As long as you're happy." Zheng Xi replied, rubbing his nose against Jian Yi's.
'As long as you're happy'
That phrase repeated over and over in Jian Yi's head. Maybe he was just being sympathetic? He didn't care at the moment, he was too hot and bothered. Jian Yi shook his head and pushed his face against Zheng Xi's, and quickly went back to kissing each other. Their tongues lightly began to caress each other. There was still guilty and anxiety dwelling in Jian Yi, but was filled with euphoria and bliss. Zheng Xi's hands pulled themselves down his chest to his waist, curling his fingers around his crotch through his pants as he kissed along Jian Yi's collarbone. Jian Yi tensed up at the touch, and in fear. He let out a shakey breath, which made Xi nervous. "How is this..?" Jian Yi quickly closed his eyes, gripping onto the boy's shoulders breathing a bit heavier. "It's okay. Everything's okay. Just... don't say anything else... Zheng Xi..." He moved his arms around Xi's neck pulling him into another kiss. Zheng Xi merciful began to palm Jian Yi's dick, making a small noises that escaped their kiss. Jian Yi was shaking uncontrollably. The only noises that they could hear outside of the room was the noise of the TV coming from the living room, and the subtle sound of cars passing by. Jian Yi gradually became louder, to point of where it might get through the wall. He covered his mouth with his hand quickly. Zheng Xi had decided after that to slowly slip his fingers into Jian Yi's pants. He pulled them down to reveal his dick dripping with precum. Xi slid his fingers across it, making Jian Yi twitch. He continued to kiss his neck, as Zheng Xi proceeded to touch him. Jian Yi was now breathing heavily, trying to keep the noise level low. Sweat glided gently down his exposed thighs and stomach. Jian Yi grabbed Zheng Xi's back again, holding him like it was his life, "ah-! Xi... d-dont... I'll dirty y-you..ngh!" He was close to his limit, but Zheng Xi didn't stop. Jian Yi wasn't even trying anymore to keep his voice down, "Fuck-ah! Zheng Xi..I'm gonna-!" As soon as he reached his limit, Xi clasped his other hand over Jian Yi's mouth. Semen splurted out strongly, leaving Jian Yi a muffled moaning mess. After he finished, Zheng Xi grabbed his shoulders gently and kissed him before leaving his room, looking like he was gonna cry. Jian Yi couldn't move, he didn't want to. He slowly pulled up his pants and proceeded to clean himself up. His thoughts then we're infected with that phrase.
'As long as you're happy'
What did Zhan Zheng Xi really think of him?
Xi stepped back in the room, looking the same as always.
"Zheng Xi... can I... ask you a question?" Jian Yi said nervously, looking at the floor, still shaking. He stepped over quietly and sat down next to him, Xi's fingers stroked his hair. "..yes" He whispered in response.
"W-what are your feelings towards me? Why did you do that just now?" Jian Yi said back, trying to sound confident in his question. He gripped his pants, trying to stop shaking.
Zheng Xi sat there quietly, his emotions still blank,
"Jian Yi... i-im sorry..."
Everything went blank.
Nothing... felt real anymore.
He knew what was about to come.
"I still think of you as a friend.. its was in the moment and... I only did that because... because..."
An aura filled the room, and within Jian Yi. He was angry, hurts, and torn to pieces. Why would he do that? Only because he wanted to see me happy?
"I'm really sorry Jian Yi... please forgive me.." Zhan Zheng Xi said again, sounding like he was about to cry, but Jian Yi just stood up, grabbed his bag, and quickly left the house before he could say anything else.
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(Ouch. -Kai)