Not Everything Has A Happy Ending

Dear Diary

It had been a month since I joined the school and nothing has changed

Today was another school day, the only difference was I wasn't dreading today as much as every other day. In the hope I might see him again and feel the butterflies I did every other time. Can you really fall in love with someone after just seeing them around and not talking to them apart from a casual Hi? No you can't that's not possible, is it?

No such luck though, he was absent that day and the bullying just got worse. One of the guys pushed me onto the floor and whipped me with his belt. I ran home crying and I didn't stop, even though I heard people calling out my name behind me.

All I wanted was to be dead. I walked up to the mirror and looked at myself up and down. Disappointed, ever since I stopped eating it looked like I was getting fatter. So today I decided I would start something I stopped a while ago. I started running until my bones ached and my feet were sore. That night I felt the need to so the same thing that I stopped. I ran to the bathroom before my parents could stop me and made myself throw up. I'm not gonna go into detail because I'm sure you wouldn't want to hear about it. All I did was cried because I promised myself that I would stop but I was to weak to just stop.

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I woke up lying in the bathroom, the sound of knocking on the door got louder and louder. I must've fallen asleep after what happened last night.

Quickly out of habit I flushed the toilet and called to whoever was banging on the door that I would only be a second.

The rest of the day just involved sitting on the sofa, eating ice cream and watching Netflix on my computer. It was a Saturday so this was allowed after all.