Broken

Allure

Nate was kissing me! I mean really kissing me. He had gently kissed me first but now it was something totally different and it felt so good. His lips covered mines as his tongue swept through the inside of my mouth. I wrapped my hands around his neck and he pulled me more flush to his lap. The kissing continued and I felt the beginning of a hard on forming under my leg. A serious hard on! I broke free and pulled out of his arms. My body immediately missed his warmth so I wrapped my arms around my stomach and hugged myself.

"Allure, I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me. You're just so beautiful and..."

"Its fine Nate. I participated. It's just, I really think you are a nice guy and I don't want to mess up our working relationship." I sat on the corner of the pull out bed and smoothed my hair back off of my face. Nate slid forward and rested his palms on my knees.

"I don't know what will happen Allure, but I cannot lie, I am extremely attracted to you. I know dealing with a man is probably the last thing on your mind right now so I'll give you time to come to terms with that, but while you are getting to know myself and my staff, please, take the time to really, really know me." When he said the second really, he put an emphasis on it.

"We are from different walks of life. How can you possibly want anything to do with little ole me? I'm sure there are women tripping over themselves to get to you. Hell, I don't even know what you do for a living. I'm clueless to what's going on in the real world. Are you sure I'm a project you want to take on?"
He looked at me and his eyes darkened. He stood up and pulled me with him. He walked me to a full length mirror in the corner of the suite.
"Allure, do you see the same thing I see? I'm sure your ex tried to brainwash you into believing you're anything less than who you are, but let me tell you what I see." He stood right behind me with his hands on my waist. He leaned in and spoke close to my ear.
"You're beautiful, smart, curvy, and you don't flaunt it or throw it around like it's a right of paasage. You have a genuinity about you that is sexy as hell. Yeah, you may have been dealing with bulls hit for the past three years, but I'm confident that I can help you be who you are right here." He said pointing to my heart. I looked at him in the mirror and the image of the two of us took my breath away. If only, I thought, pulling away from him and closing myself in the bathroom. I needed to put space between us. He was making me want things I knew I couldn't have. Nate was a sexy man and I'm sure most would jump at the opportunity to be on his arm. I on the other hand just want to find my way in life. Start working again and build my life. Trying to do or start anything with Nate only complicated things. I sat on the toilet and put my face in my hands and allowed the tears to fall. I had been holding them back for some time and now, I just needed to let them flow freely. Sometimes, you just needed to have a good, gut-wrenching sob and move on. That's what I wanted to do now. I just wanted to cry for all the areas of my life, where things just went south and then begin to heal and move on with my life.
I cleaned my face with water and dried it with a towel. Then I took a deep breath and opened the bathroom door. Nate sat at the table arranging some trays of food. When he saw me, he stopped what he was doing and walked toward me.
"Allure, are you okay?" The genuine concern in his voice pulled at my heartstrings.
I simply nodded. He led me to the table and pulled out a chair for me to sit at. Once I was seated, he took the seat opposite me. He started dipping food onto our plates and I watched intently. I studied his features. He had flawless skin, he was about 6'5. He wore a pair of sweatpants and a tshirt that stretched snug over his biceps. I grabbed the cup of water he had sat in front of me. I had started feeling hot, and the cold water was just what I needed to cool me off.

"Look Allure, I don't want tension between us so how about we start over. I'm Nathan Golden. I'm a 30 years old movie star who happens to be deeply attracted to you and I'd like to see where things could go with us. We can take things very slowly. I'm moving at your pace. Should you decide you want to put the brakes on us, it won't affect our working relationship in anyway. Anything you want to know about me, simply ask. With you, and only you, I'm an open book. Ask me anything?" Movie star! I cannot believe I'm sitting in a suite with a movie star and on top of that one that claims to be in his own words, deeply attracted to me. I'm at a loss for words.

"I'm Allure Lewis. I'm a 25 year old who grew up a warden of the state. I worked hard and received a full ride scholarship to school where I studied journalism. I was working as a contributing editor at the New York times before I...before, my life changed for the worse." I was trying to play along and pretend we had met under normal conditions. Problem was, even under normal conditions, the likelihoodof me running into a movie star were slim to none. I started eating the food on my plate. I hadn't had much more than a pack of Roman Noodles a day and water, so my stomach wasn't used to large amounts of food. I was however enjoying the meal and the man sitting across from me. Maybe there was hope, I thought smiling as I put another fork full of food to my mouth and savoring the delicious taste that filled my mouth. I could get used to this.