You Are My Light (BOOK 1) ( BOYXBOY MPREG)

Chapter Four

Okay so I decided to continue this series, because I think I can do a little more work with it so. I hope you all enjoy this 😌 

Chiaki:

This was harder than I actually thought.

I didn't really anticipate on how I would go about showing Yukio the outside world he's never explored. Honestly, I think he's got an idea as to what everything actually is but I don't think he knows that the picture in his mind of what the object is is right. It hurts a bit to watch.

He thought a rock was a pearl, and was confused as to why it wasn't round or shiny so I spent 30 minutes explaining as to why it wasn't what he thought it was. I also learned that bees freak him out, and birds give him anxiety? You'd really have to see it to believe it. But I want to take the time to really help him....I don't think he's really had that much of attention. "Do those things always hide acorns like that?" Yukio asked, pointing at a squirrel, I nodded "yeah, but I always think they forget where they hide them because people walk through here all the time and the shoes dig them up". He laughed "well that sucks...all that effort for nothing.." he trailed off looking out towards the lake, "you know....it's really weird for me to be out of that place. I never dreamed that I'd ever leave...my mother made sure of that. But...".

He paused, as if he was holding back tears, but quickly shook his head and smiled "whatever!".

I gave him a smile back "yeah, whatever!".

We walked along the lake for a while longer, Yukio wanted to start collecting the tiny shells he found so I told him I'd get him a jar to put them in. I'm happy I'm starting to see the real Yukio outside of that god for saken facility....no one deserves that sort of treatment, especially from a parent who's supposed to love you. I decided on not asking him to much about his mother until he was comfortable with talking to me about her, it already seems as though he has a hard time with it. "Hey Chiaki?" He whispered, I stopped walking and turned to him "yeah?".

"Do normal people know that you're a wolf?"

I pondered for a moment "well. People know they exist, but people I don't know don't know that I am"

"Oh", his eyes lowered to the ground trying to avoid looking at me, I immediately knew what he was asking. "No one treats me different, if that's what you're wanting to know" I smiled, his eyes remained on the ground but he slowly nodded, as his lips curled into a small satisfied smile. "Maybe next time we can go into town" I muttered, his head whipped back at me, and his eyes wide almost frightened "W-we can't do that!! People will make fun of me..." . I shook my head slowly "no they won't, the people here aren't like that I promise". He frowned, I understood why he would have so much doubt about outside people, he hasn't been around humans or well other beings for that matter. I don't know how he could be sane enough to stand that place but then again...it's all he knows.

"Listen" I said softly "you're with me now. So if anyone tries to hurt your feelings, I'll personally take care of it"

"Really?"

"Really really"

"Don't eat them though" he smirked.

I laughed, ruffling his hair "I'd never eat anyone!"

Yukio:

I haven't felt this kind of freedom ever in my life. That feeling where, you just feel so safe? I mean I have felt safe. But it was a weird kind of safe, yes it was a place to sleep and live so it was safe. But that wouldn't be the right word for what it was...

Not only have I learned more just from being outside, but I'm less afraid of my surroundings! I've had to get used to being around others and  Chiaki has been taking me out a lot more to show me more of his world. He really try's to understand me and it feels...really nice...he's really nice. "You know if you hold your face like that your face will freeze?", I snapped out of my thoughts looking straight at him. "I wasn't making a face" I said, he smiled "you were smiling to yourself".

We had been sitting by the water for a while, I hadn't realized I was so deep in thought. "I was just thinking to myself" I whispered,  he nodded slowly gazing at the water, "are they happy thoughts?".  Happy enough.  I gave him a wink, we decided to head back to the house and watch some movies, there's still so much I haven't seen. This type of living is so foreign to me...and I'm slowly trying to gather what I can, but Chiaki has been so amazing to me. I've learned so much in just a short time! But I often think about my mother and if she's angry with me for leaving. Would it actually matter though? Would she actually be angry with me? She already despises me, and she didn't want anything to do with me in the first place...But I cant help but wonder. "So have you decided what movie you want to watch?" Chiaki asked, I shook my head slightly embarrassed "I've never seen a movie before remember?". "Oh yeah..well we'll find something! I've got tons!" He grinned.

Chiaki:

This was a lot.

like a lot a lot

I literally don't know what do with myself when I'm around Yukio. He seems so sure of himself now and he's been smiling and laughing more, i just makes my heart really happy. I told him we would have a movie night and right as I said it I got nerves, it's not like I'm asking him out on a date and even if that was the case it's to soon. What am I saying? I cant possibly be thinking about something like that. I've only known him for a short time but its almost like I've known him for even longer.  Since this was a pretty big deal I rummaged through some shelves and dug out a few DVDs, he continued to stare at me and would smile every single time I'd make an even bigger mess. "Alright. take your pick" I laid out a few stacks in front of him, most of them were dusty and I could tell he really didn't want to pick anything up, He grinned "mm how about this one?".   "Twilight?"  I moaned, his eyes lowered "Is it bad?" yes. " No no! it's fine we can watch it!" I grabbed the case and fumbled frantically putting it in the DVD player. I could hear him laugh a tiny bit as he scooted closer to me,  my face started to feel a bit hot and I couldn't move. Am I blushing? WHY?! We haven't even started the movie yet and I'm already in spiraling.

I could tell he was already captivated by the movie, he hasn't moved a single muscle since it started and I can't help but stare at him. He's absolutely radiant. I've never had a mate before and it'd be awfully weird to imprint with a cat, But it's not uncommon around here. Weird in a sense that in my family it would be weird but would be accepted, I just don't want to scare him off with feelings he's never had. And most of all scare me. What if I do imprint with him? How would he feel? He's never experienced any type of emotion associated with love or any of the chemical factors that come with being a cat. Has he been in heat before? And if not, when he does how will I handle it? There's just s much to think about...but for now I'll just wait. "Hey Chiaki..can I ask you something?" I didn't even notice he was looking at me, His face is bright read and his eyes look so glossed over. "Sure. Shoot", He fully turned to me, fiddling with his fingers. "It's just...well...there's something I've wanted to ask you and you don't have to immediately respond but I just thought I should.. you know.  I want you--".  That was enough for me, I kissed him. If that wasn't  what he wanted to ask me I didn't care, His face sold it to me enough and I don't know if I'm in the right or wrong but for some reason this just feels so so right. 

All at once I feel him wrap his legs around me, Hurling himself at me. I guess he has feeling in his legs now whether that was from me or not I don't care. The kiss starts to get more intense and I can feel the heat from our bodies radiating, His tail swinging in excitement, his hands and fingers wrapped around my neck. I know if this goes on any further we'd wake someone up but I want to keep this going, I've never felt so sure about something in my life. My hands finally rest under his thighs, hoisting him up, for an instant we looked at each other in awe. "So what was it you wanted to ask me?" I whispered against his lips,  with one of his hands he cups my cheek not taking his gaze off me, "kiss me".

I'm so happy to be back and finishing this! I had my doubts but I'm seriously going to keep investing my time and effort into this book. So vote and comment and just in general so this book some love! thank you so much! ❤❤