Depression - a.i

Mixed.

It's been a few days since the hate and I am still well getting it. I have had to do it a few times, I haven't told Ashton, I think it would break him if he found out.
Today we are im Cardiff!! Wales. We are going shopping today well this morning before soundcheck.
"How are you this morning?" Calum says as we walk downstairs.
Me and Cal are the only smokers so every morning we have our annual smoking sesh.
"Been better, you?" I say smiling weakly.
"Hmm same" He said.
"What's up?"
"Just feeling a little down if you know what I mean..."
"Yeah I do, that and that your fans hate me."
"Lets do something to piss them off"
"Like what?"
We stood outside smoking now.
He took a selfie with me and then tweeted it...
@Calum5SOS: My smoking buddy👫🚬
"Cal, they literally will probs try shoot me" I laugh.
"I'll protect you!!" He laughed. "Anyways what's going on with you and Ash?" Calum said as I inhaled more smoke.
"Nothing?" I smiled.
"Hmm yeah well that's not what it looks like"
I roll my eyes.
"Babe don't roll your eyes, you know as much as me, Mikey and Luke that he likes you, and we all know that you like him!!"
"Yeah yeah ok"
My phones started to explode.
"Ready?" I say.
"Let's see what they gotta say!" He said.
I pull my phone out to see mixed reactions.
@lolmypenguinlrh: Moved onto Cal now, slut🔫
@MrsCalumH: They actually make a cute couple🔪
@music5SOLCMA: Can she die yet💊
@CalumftIrwin: Calum and Daisy are my otp❤️
"They seem to think that we would make a cute couple" I laughed.
"No Ash is your one and only!"
I rolled my eyes.
"You love it" He playfully pushed me.
"Hmm" I say sarcastically.
"We would make a cute couple" He said laughing.
"In your dreams sunshine" I smiled.
"Ahh only like the drummers I see"
"Which ones that?"
He laughed and so did I.
Ashton rang me.
A: Are you ok?
M: Yeah why?
A: All the hate from Cal.
M: Aww half of them are saying how cute of a couple we would make.
A: Never really saw you as a bassit type
M: Really?
A: Mhmm either way meet us for breakfast in 10 minutes.
M: Ok ok see you in a min bye Ash
A: Bye bae.

"Ash was it?" Calum smirked.
I punched him in the arm and he laughed at me once again.

10 minutes passed and me and Calum walked inside,
"Hey good morning" Luke said.
"You too" I smiled.
"Mikey!" I shouted hugging him.
"You ok babe?" He said.
"Yeah bro you?" I said
"Yeah Im good" Mikey said.
We took a seat, Luke and Calum next to me, Ashton opposite and Mikey nect to Ash. I ordered a fruit salad with natural yoghurt.
@Ashton5SOS: Breakfast date game is strong❤️ @DaisyHemmo

"Your such a twat" I laughed.
"What can I say? I do try?" He said.
"I'll have your fucking fans out now, hunting me down"
They all laughed.
I grabbed my phone out.
@yellowbandanaash: come to think of it they would make a cute couple, and it kinds of upsets me.
@guitarpikmikey: mhmmm back to Ash.
@Jamielrh: The thing is though I actually ship them, I met Daisy and she is such a lovely person. She doesn't deserve the hate!! (pic of me and her)

I followed Jamie and liked the tweet.
"Guys, can you all go follow @Jamielrh please" I say grinning.
"Why?" They all say.
"Just do it, one of you do it off the band account"
"Okok" Calum said.
I watched them all follow her and I DMed her, you're welcome have fun DMing them❤️❤️❤️

She dmed me back instantly.
Oml thank you so much you are honestly the nicest person please let Dash be a thing!!❤️❤️❤️

No problem, and about the last thing, dont tell anyone but I think I'm starting to get feelings for Ash...❤️❤️❤️