Darkness

The Other Side

Depression is a dark, dark place that no one wants to visit. It's this place that you can't escape, it's like a maze that you can't figure out, or a 1,000 piece puzzle you can't put together. That time you open up to someone and they say, why didn't you ever tell anyone? Who wants to admit they have these voices in their head constantly bullying them?

But see, there is a light in depression. It's not very bright and it's not very big. But it's that light we look into when we find any kind of reason not to give up. There is no stupid reason on why not to end your life.

You have a TV show and the season finale is coming? Or you have a dog and you know you have to feed him? Or there a box of pizza that needs to be eaten? OR THERE'S A BOOK ON WATTPAD YOU HAVE TO KNOW THE ENDING. There is no stupid reason, I promise you that.

Once, I was in a very dark place. And literally, I remembered I had to update The Monroe Family. I couldn't just leave you guys on a cliffhanger, that's just cruel. But that little thing stopped me from doing something permanent.

I don't know any of you, but yet I love you. I care for you. When I know someone out there feels like me, I just want to hug them and let them know I love them. Boy or girl, it wouldn't make a difference to me.

So when you are in your dark place, search for that light. Go to chapter 72 of No More Good Girl and laugh your ass off. Someone told me to share this with people I trusted. I said, I trust my readers.

You wanna know how to cut?

1.) You get your razor, your knife, or scissors.
2.) Walk to your trashcan and throw them away, smile while you do it.

Beautiful, put that razor down, you don't deserve that hurt. Babydoll, put that lighter down, we use that for candles so our rooms will smell nice. Handsome, put those pills away, eat some smarties.

It won't be ok today, it won't be ok tomorrow, but a year from now, you're going to look back and think. I can't believe I was really going to take my life and not have what I have today.

When you're feeling down at 2am and you're losing every bit of hope you got. Go to YouTube, watch TheGabbieShow, Alx James, Shane Dawson, hell go watch those voice overs from lip readings. OOH or go check out those cool videos on conspiracies.

If you're ever starting to feel different in school, just think about the fact that I once walked into the boys bathroom my freshman year. While there was a guy and I just stood frozen, and then while attempting to run out. I ran into the wall.

I know that depression is not the only mental illness in the world. Trust me, I know. So if you want me to talk about any others, just comment. Or if you want me to talk about something else, just tell me.

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