Not so perfect

Misunderstood

7:49 am Tuesday
I wake up about 10 minutes later , wow I wonder how my dad felt with a child with a broken knee and another one passed out on the floor.. And to explain it to my mom.

My mom is in my hospital room while my dad is in Ethan's. They switch every few hours. I'm fine I just needed some rest. I passed out in a panick attack. And my brother has a basketball hoop in his room . He tried to make a shoot with he missed and landed on his dresser, falling on the floor, he broke his knee , tore a muscle and is going to be in immediate surgery. I feel like I'm gonna be in another panick attack. I can't see him like this. I'm out of here in few hours , Ethan's staying for weeks.
Few hours later 6:18 pm Tuesday
"Hey how ya feelin" my mom comes in my hospital room as I'm packing my bags , about to go home.
"I'm alright , I just wanna go home " I respond with a sigh
"We'll go home... As soon as we see Ethan ." She replies
I look up at her "I don't wanna see Ethan, not in pain".
"I know I know but we have to see him after he goes into surgery". She responds as she fixes her shirt
6:45 pm
We arrive at his room
I sit on the chair , the nurse talking to Ethan and my mom. She leaves and Ethan instantly looks at me.
"Hey " Ethan says as he smirks
"hi, how are you " I ask
"I'm doing fine , I'm not in as much pain but I'm getting used to it . I get my surgery at 9:00 pm tonight. Will you guys be here"?? Ethan says

"We'll be here all night , " ...

Great.

7:22 pm
We arrive home I get in the shower. After I get out I pass Ethan's room, I look in it and I see a flashback of the blood and bones coming out of his knee.

I get to my room as my mom walks in , I look see she has a bowl of icecream in her hand , I don't even think I can eat anything till 21 more hours. But yolo.
"How are you feeling" she asks me as she gives me my bowl of icecream
"Eh , I just really don't wanna see Eth..." I get cut off
"Look, you don't understand that he's in the hospital and he needs all the help and support he can get. He may never walk again and you're refusing to see him because you don't wanna see him in pain "? She looks at me in dispite
All I can think about now is the bunches of way things can go wrong and lead to death . And the one way the surgery could go right and lead to him feeling better...

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