Soft Rain[ON HOLD]

WANTING ANOTHER CHANCE

"Mia wake up" my daddy shook me lightly. I sat up and rubbed my eyes. I yawned and scatched my head. "Olle girl that breath" he laughed. "Shut up daddy" I playfully hit him in the chest. 

"You know what tomorrow is right" he asked. 

"Yes daddy how could I forget my own birthday" I laughed. 

"Right..right" he was silent for a minute. 

"Daddy whats going on" I asked him now worried. "Nothing Mia , just get dressed and be downstiars in a hour" he kissed my forehead and walked out my bedroom. I got up and grabbed my clothes and went into the bathroom. I took a 20 minute shower and then got out. I dried off and put on my clothes. The news said it was gonna be chilly outside toay so I chose to wear pants. I put on my hollister stainwashed jeans , my gold and white striped cardigan. With a white tank top and gold uggs. I was comfortable and cute at the same time. I curled my hair and then sprayed some perfume on. I put my gold necklace on and grabbed my phone. I walked downstairs to see nobody in the living room. "Dad" i called out but got no answer. How is he gonna tell me to get ready and then he aint nowhere to be found. I went into the kitchen and made a bowl of ceral. "Mia'' my dad called. ''Im in here daddy" i responded. He walked into the kitchen with my mom on his side. I rolled my eyes. "I told you about them eyes Mia" she hissed. "Mia be nice" my dad told me. "Sorry" I mumbled. "Uhh , your mother wants to spend time with you , since she wont be here tomorrow for your birthday". They cant be serious! 

"Mia is that ok" she asked. 

"Yeah I guess" i finished my ceral and rinsed my bowl and spoon out. "Okay well we need to leave , our    appointment is in 5 minutes". Appointments? Uggh! 

I gabbed my phone and we left. We rode in silence. It was awkward because my mom and I havent been talking like when I was younger. Every since her and Cj have gotten together , she's been distant. I understand she wants to be happy but I mean at least still show your daughter some attention. Part of me thinks she dont love me anymore beacuse of what happened between me and Jr. It's not my fault that he raped me. I tesned up at the thought. "Mia are you okay" my mother sked me. 

Does it fucking look like it ? 

"Yes mom , I'm just thinking about something" I told her. "Thinking about" she questioned. "Nothing , it's not important" I lied. She didnt try to get it out of me. Of course , but I'm glad she didnt. 

We pulled up in front of Megan's Beauty Salon & Spa. I got out the car first and walked into the shop waiting on my mom. A few seconds later she walked in. "Hello Sue ,this is Mia my daughter" my mom explained to a lady who looked like she was about 40 years old. "Hello , Mia your mother talks about you all the time" Sue said to me. I smiled. We walked into this room and then got on the elevator. For a salon and spa this place is huge. We got off and went into this vacant area. "Make your self at home and I'll be right back" Sue said before exiting our area. "Mia , uh we need to talk" my mother said. "About" I asked taking off my boots. "About our relationship , we don talk lik we used to" she told me. "Mom , do we have to talk about this" I wasnt in the mood. "Yes , Mia I miss you" she touched my hand. I snatched away slowly. "Mom how could you say you miss me? The time I needed you the most you were never there! I was raped for crying out loud. Not by a stranger but by my own brother. I looked up to him and he raped me. I was only 13 ma and you weren't there for me. Instead you blamed it all on me. Saying I wasnt shit and how I was over reacting! Bullshit! I'm 17 now and I need you more then ever. But you still chose Cj over me. He aint my daddy and he will never be my father. Instead of worrying about what he needs you should worry about your own blood!" I snapped. 

She started crying. As of right now I could care less. She shouldnt have did what she did. What type of mother does that? "Mia , I'm trying to be a better mom" she cried. "No your not , mom I was getting bullied in school and everything. You dont even know what I've been going through" I yelled as tears fell from my face. I was fuming. "Mia just give me another chance" she begged. "Why the hell should I" I screamed. "Look , you dont know what I was going through. Your thirteen year old daughter telling you that her brother raped her. Your boyfriend telling you he is in love with your daughter. Mia you cant be selfish you werent the only one going through shit. Everybody is in the world. I have never once chose Cj over you". "Mom yes you have.Look if your gonna be indenal (spellcheck) then forget this talk" I stood up and put my boots on. "Mia please dont leave , look I'm sorry. Can you forgive me" She grabbed my arm. 

"Mom I cant I have to deal with that image of Jr all over me. Cj wanting to have sex with me in my head for the rest of my life. You just dont understand" I placed her hand off me. 

"Mia if you would talk to me maybe I would". 

"Mom how could I talk to you. You never have time for me". 

She didnt say anything. I grabbed my phone and walked out the room and into the lobby. I called my dad so he could come pick me up. 

Cj is inlove with me? Eww thats so gross. 

"Mia I'm not coming to get you , stay there and talk to your mom" my dad told me. "Dad I tried she's not listening to me though" I explained to him. 

"Mia just do it for me please" he begged. 

I sighed "No dad" i hung up. 

My mom came out the room crying. I hate to see her cry but what else can I do? We wouldnt have been in this predicument if shed handled me getting raped differently. 

We got in the car and rode home in silence. When we arrived at home I got out the car. She wasnt even at a complete stop. I just wanted to be by myself. Tomorrow was suppose to be my big day! Im turning 18 tomorrow with so much on my plate. I hope it all goes well.

I ran upstiars to my room slamming the door behind me. I locked it and plopped on my bed. I turned Drake on. 

"Just hold on we're going home" blasted through my head phones. 

Hopefully tomorrow is a better day .