Hey guys!! :) How are you today?? Umm this is the next step, it feels like forever since I last updated don’t you think (it was only 5 days ago actually) anyway …
This is edited terrible because its kinda 2am and I'm sleepy hahahaha sorry.
Chapter is dedicated to csbocks, you know why love ;) xx
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Chapter 6
STEP 6
Niall’s POV (I'm also surprised)
Since the beginning of Harry’s 8 step plan thing I had never really been the one to wake up early go over to him. I mean he was the one with the plan and steps right? So you can imagine my shock when he asked me to come over.
I was actually pretty scared, or rather worried about today, my mind was filled with guilt. It was the beginning of what I had started called the ‘sexual’ steps. I was honestly freaking out. I liked, no, loved Harry and I honestly was on the edge about this entire thing.
I really want to do those ‘sexual’ steps with him but it’s not how I imagined you know? I had always imagined that Harry and I would be dating and mutually in love you know, and it would be special and mean so much, every little kiss and every little hug would mean the world to us.
But right now it seems like I'm going to be using for my own personal needs and pleasure and quite frankly it made me feel sick. I love him and this I guess it is mutual but only to an extent. He doesn’t actually want this with me, he feels that he needs to, and not for the reasons I wished. I want him to want it with me you know.
What was basically happening was that I was going to be ‘teaching’ him this so that he could go and use it on the one he truly loved and it really felt like a stab to my heart because I loved him so much and he just didn’t think of me that way or return the feelings.
The reason I didn’t want Harry, or really anyone, to know that I performed at that bar downtown was because most of the songs I sang there were covers with meaning, mainly related to Harry. It was my outlet, it felt as if I didn’t let those feeling out I would explode.
Telling Harry wasn’t an option though, because I knew Harry. I knew that he would feel obligated to love me back and in turn that would make him resent me and be unhappy. All I needed to do really was make sure that he was happy, and if that meant him ending up with Louis then it had to be done.
What he didn’t know though was that I would enjoy every single moment of whatever was going to happen today, but afterwards I would probably beat myself up over it. I was now standing in front of Harry’s front door and for the first time in years I knocked.
I heard footsteps moving towards and door and took a deep breath in. when the door opened I was met with Harry’s bright face. I could read his facial expression so easily and what it told me made me want to run.
He looked, scared, nervous and juts unsure about this whole thing, strengthening my fears. Before he had the chance to greet me or invite me In I had to ask again. “Harry are you sure about this? You don’t have to do this please.”
He visibly relaxed then started blushing before he even said the sentence. “Niall don’t worry, I'm just nervous because well this is my first time doing anything like this and yeah I'm just worried that I’ll be bad for you and-” I cut him off because quite frankly that was the biggest load of bull I’d ever heard.
“No Harry, this isn’t about me at all, it’s about you okay, remember that! If at any point you feel uncomfortable tell me okay? He simply nodded. I had decided in that second that I would do this only because I’d rather it was me, who actually respected him than some weirdo that didn’t understand boundaries.
He smiled then nodded. “Okay.” He opened the door wide enough for me, and then he led me to his bedroom. “I wanted to do this here because I'm more comfortable here I guess. I smiled at how cute he was. “That’s okay, I don’t mind, whatever works best for you.”
We both sat facing each other on the bed and I suddenly starting getting quite nervous. Even if it wasn’t romantic I was still finally getting to kiss him. He started leaning towards me before pausing and laughing.
“Sorry I'm nervous, and I feel stupid I dunno what to do.” I smiled at him softly admiring the light blush that was now dusting his cheeks. “Don’t over think it, it becomes a natural feeling eventually.” I decided to take the initiative and lean forward.
I hadn’t closed my eyes yet and I saw him start to slowly lean in as well. This was the moment of truth; I could feel my heart hammering in my chest. When we got even closer I closed my eyes and I was positive that he would to.
When his lips touched mine I swear I died and went to heaven. It was the most beautiful feeling I had ever experienced. His soft lips rested gently between my two and the butterflies took flight inside my stomach.
I started moving my lips gently against his and I swear in that moment there was world peace. I slowly moved my hands from their position on my lap and onto the back of his neck, pulling him closer to me. All thoughts of me using him were pushed out of my mind as I slipped my tongue into his warm mouth.
I felt him hands come up to rest gently on my waist. I slowly started pushing him back to he was lying on the bed and lay next to him all without breathing this passion filled kiss. All I could think of whilst we lay side by side exploring each other’s mouths was STEP 6 – COMPLETE.
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NARRY KISS YAAAAY!!!!!!
How was that??
This was like the first full thing I’ve ever written in Niall’s POV
Did you like it in that POV or should I switch back to Harry’s??
What did you think of the chapter in general and the NARRY KISS WHOOPP WHOOP!! Please guys, comment and stuff, it really does motivate me to write and stuff and just remember I don’t have to write this, but I do because I want you guys to enjoy, the least you can do is vote and comment please xx
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