Hey guys
No one.
No one will miss me will they? I'm useless
Look at me I'm hideous.
I want all the bullets out there to know that you caused this.
Millions die each year from what you think is "harmless teasing"
Harmless teasing my ads.
It hurts. Hurts to know that people find joy in your own pain.
That joy causes people to say their last words
Last words are important don't you think?
I do. I think they're special words to say at a special moment.
For some, that moment comes sooner than others.
Like me for example.
Yesterday I needed help so I asked @beckiawesome to help me. And she did
But I got mad and ran and here I am.
I need someone.
We had a conversation earlier about suicide.
She said that as long as someone who cares is holding your ceiling up you will be fine
My ceiling is falling. My ceiling is full of cracks. My ceiling is losing its support.
My ceiling is broken.
And as soon as you realize your ceiling is failing you do everything you can to stop it and you slowly fall with it.
Then suddenly there is only one person holding up your ceiling.
And then they're gone too
These are my last words
The world is dark
It is like a living nightmare that you're dying to wake up from
You want to go towards the light
And anytime, anywhere, the light is better than the dark.
I know I'm being selfish but I don't care. If I have to be selfish for people to stop hurting me then so be it
With lots of love
-Ash xoxo