Oceans & Sunsets (Mericcup)

no.1

jad·ed

'jādəd/

tired, bored, or lacking enthusiasm, typically after having had too much of something.

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Have you ever been so over something, so done with it. Well that's how I am with my life right now. I'm tired of it, no more like exhausted. If you're wondering, no I'm not depressed or "emo."

I'm just normal girl wanting to have a little bit more abnormal in my life. My life is boring, average, dull, monotonous, repetitive, bleh-you get the point.

I live in the "great" city of Orlando. Or in other words the city where Disney World is, or as I like to see it as where every freaking tourist in America has visited.

You would think that in a city with so many people there would be a bit excitement, but I guess that's not the case. My mother thinks all these thoughts I'm having are nonsense, that I'm crazy. She wants me to live this perfect life, that I should go into the family business, and meet a nice lad, and have kids and live happily ever after-blah, blah, blah.

She's so busy trying to make me like herself, that she can't see what I truly want. Yes, I may not know exactly what I want, but I know that I want an adventure, I want to go to places I've never been, see things I've never seen. But so far I don't know how I can do that.

Despite how unhappy I am with my life right now, not all of it is horrible, that being my friends. First you got Elsa, she's my best friend, I don't know why though, we're two completely different people. They say we're like ice & fire, I guess we're so close because we balance each other out.

Then you got Eugene, my next door neighbor since forever, and the pain is my ass. But under all that cockiness and flirtation, he's got a big heart. Lastly, you have Anna and Kristoff, they come together, literally they never leave the other's side. They've been in love since they were four when they met in a sandbox, I know it sounds hilarious and cheesy, but trust me it's real.

They're pretty much the only thing that gives me happiness anymore, well up until this conversation I'm having with them right now.

"Merida, are you even listening this is serious you know," Elsa snapped me out of my thoughts.

"How exactly?" my tone was emotionless. I've literally had this discussion with my mom a hundred times. I should've known that something was wrong from the moment she texted me telling me quote "we need to talk," and to meet her and my other friends at the old cafe down the street, no one ever went there that's why we loved it so much.

"Look Merida I know you're not happy, that you want to do other stuff. But because of this your personality is changing you never smile anymore, you haven't made fun of us in a while, you're different. So we just think that..." Elsa stopped not seeming to want to say it.

"We think that it's probably best if you try to listen to you're mom. I'm not saying you you need to do exactly what she wants, but at least try and find happiness here," Eugene finished for Elsa, the rest of them gave agreeing looks.

"I can't believe this! You guys can't be serious. Last time I checked I can't just find happiness, like it's something you can buy. But you guys just made me realize that this place has never made me happy, and it never will. I'm so tired of people telling what I can and can't do with my life. You guys were the only ones I thought actually understood that, but I was wrong you're the exact same as everyone else!" I yelled at them, my voice mixed with anger and hurt. Everyone seemed shocked at my outburst. When tears began to cloud my vision I shook my head, and walked out of the door, I ignored the shouts calling after me as I exited.

The summer breeze hit my face as I walked down the street with a stomp, this caused my hair to fly back and uncover the face I usually hid. As I walked I tried to hold back the tears threatening to spill from my eyes. I never showed weakness, I always had to be strong.

That's all I repeated in my head as I walked trying to get to my house.

I am strong

I am strong

I am strong

When I reached my house, I opened the door harshly, and slamming it shut, quickly running up to my room. I collapsed on my bed, and that's when tears began pouring out of my eyes and onto my red comforter making it wet. I don't think I've ever cried this much, I guess all of...this... has caused a lot of stress and built up hurt.

It felt like I cried for hours, until finally my tears seemed all gone. I just laid there sniffing every once in a while, my curls matted, and my head hurting from all the tears that had been shed.

Suddenly I heard the door open. "Merida I know you probably don't want to see me. But I wanted to talk to you about something," My mother said gently.

I didn't say anything, so she just simply walked over and sat on the edge of the bed. "Well your father and I have seen how stressed you've been lately, and how unhappy you've been. So we decided that maybe instead of forcing these ideas of what you should do onto you, that it would be good for you to have a break," My mom said in the same soft voice as before.

"A break?" I croaked out, my voice scratchy, you could obviously tell I was crying.

"Yeah, do you remember our friend from collage Teresa Gothel and her daughter Rapunzel that we saw when you were younger?" My mom asked, I just simply nodded.

"Well she offered for you to come and stay with them in their house in Bluehill, Maine for the summer. I understand you might not want to go but we thought it would just be a great escape and-" I sat up a engulfed her in a hug.

At first she gasped, surprised with my action, but soon she was hugging me back, and running her fingers gently through my curls.

"Thank you for understanding. And yeah I wanna go," I spoke in a almost whisper.

I've only seen Rapunzel and her mother about two times, but as far as I remember they were okay. I mean Rapunzel was a bit hyper and bubbly, and her mom was kind of strict, but they seemed like good people. I wanted to do this, I mean Maine was so far away, but honestly that's what I needed, fresh air, an escape, something that could help me get my mind off of all of this, and a chance to just think about myself and what I wanted. Who knows maybe this experience could change me, and have a big impact on my life, you never know.

And with that thought I smiled. I almost forgot the feeling of that, I hadn't done in so long. But for once in what seemed like forever, I felt like I had just a quiver of hope.

Hey guys so I know I'm a crazy person for uploading another story, but I don't know I wanna start putting my work out there because soon I feel that this fandom is not gonna really be anything. I mean many people are leaving and I just want all the people that stay with this fandom to have all the stories they can get. So yeah I've had this Mericcup story in mind for like ever, and I just decided to post it. I'll update whenever I can, but my life is pretty chaotic right now so yeah. I hope you like this and if you want me to publish some of my other stories I have in works I'd love to. Just tell me in the comments. But anyways love you guys. Bye luvs❤️